This bale was, in general, made up of several great passion; but I could easily see he was exsmaller bales, which I had directed, so that I ceedingly pleased; and told me, had he known might have room to make presents, equally sorted, || the particulars, he would never have suffered as the circumstance might direct me. However, them to have gone as he did, and at last used the they were all considerable, and I reckoned the very same compliment that the governor at the whole bale cost me nearly 2001. sterling in Eng. || Havannah used, viz., that it was a present fit for land; and, though my present circumstances re a viceroy of Mexico rather than for him. quired some limits to my bounty in making pre When he had done he then told me he rememsents, yet the obligation I was under being so bered I had two requests to him, and that one much greater, especially to this friendly generous

was not to be told till after the first was granted, Spaniard, I thought I could not do better than,

and he hoped now I had something to ask of him by opening two of the smaller bales, join them

that was equal to the obligation I had laid upon together, and make my gift something suitable to him. my benefactor, and to the respect he had shown I told him I knew it was not the custom in me; accordingly I took two bales, and, laying

Spain for a stranger to make presents to the the goods together, the contents were as fol

ladies, and that I would not in the least doubt lows:

but that, whatever the ladies of his family reTwo pieces of fine English broad-cloth, the

quired as proper for their use, he would approfinest that could be got in London, divided, priate to them as he thought fit; but that there as was that which I gave to the governor at

were two little boxes in the parcel, which my the Havannah, into fine crimson in grain,

wife, with her own hand, had directed to the fine light mixtures, and fine black

ladies; and I begged he would be pleased, with Four pieces of fine Holland of 7s. to 8s. per ell his own hand, to give them in my wife's name, in London.

as directed; that I was only the messenger, but Twelve pieces of fine silk drugget and duroys that I could not be honest if I did not discharge for men's wear.

the trust reposed in me. Six pieces of broad silks, two damasks, two

These were the two boxes of ribands and brocaded silks, and two mantuas.

lace, which, knowing the nicety of the ladies in With a box of ribands and a box of lace. The Spain, or rather of the Spaniards about their

last cost about 401. sterling in England. women, I had made my wife pack up, and directed This handsome parcel I laid open in my apart-1| with her own hand, as I have said. ment, and brought him up stairs one morning on pretence to drink chocolate with me, which he

He smiled, and told me it was true the Spa

niards did not ordinarily admit so much freedom ordinarily did, when, as we drank chocolate, and

among the women as other nations; but he were merry, I said to him, though I had sold him

hoped (he said) I would not think the Spaniards almost all my cargo and taken his money, yet

thought all their women whores, or that all Spathe truth was that I ought not to have sold them to him, but to have laid them all at his feet, for

niards were jealous of their wives; that, as to

my present, since he had agreed to accept of it, that it was to his direction I owed the having

I should have the direction of what part I anything saved at all. He smiled, and, with a great deal of friendship

pleased to his wife and daughters; for he had

three daughters. in his face, told me that not to have paid me for

Here I strained courtesies again, and told him them would have been to have plundered a shipwreck, which had been worse than to have rob

- || by no means, I would direct nothing of that kind, bed an hospital.

I only begged that he would with his own hand

present to his donna, or lady, the present deAt last I told him I had two requests to make

signed her by my wife, and that he would present to him which must not be denied. I told him I had a small present to make him which I would

it in her name, now living in Virginia. He was

extremely pleased with the nicety I used, and I give him a reason why he should not refuse to

saw him present it to her accordingly, and could accept; and the second request I would make after the first was granted. He said he would

see, at the opening of it, that she was extremely

pleased with the present itself, as indeed she have accepted my present from me if I had not

might very well be; for in that country it was been under a disaster ; but, as it was, it would be

worth a very considerable sum of money. cruel and ungenerous. But I told him he was obliged to hear my reason for his accepting it.

Though I was used with an uncommon friendThen I told him that this parcel was made up

ship before, and nothing could well be desired for him by name by my wife and I in Virginia,

more, yet the grateful sense I showed of it, in and his name set on the marks of the bale, and

the magnificence of this present, was not lost, accordingly I showed him the marks, which was

and the whole family appeared sensible of it ; so indeed on one of the bales, but I had doubled it

that I must allow that presents, where they can now (as above), so that I told him these were his

be made in such a manner, are not without their own proper goods; and, in short, I pressed him

influence, where the persons were not at all merso to receive them that he made a bow, and I cenary, either before or after. said no more, but ordered my negro, that is to I had here now a most happy and comfortable say, his negro, that waited on me, to carry them retreat, though it was a kind of an exile; here all except the two boxes into his apartments, but || I enjoyed everything I could think of that was would not let him see the particulars till they were | agreeable and pleasant, except only a liberty of all carried away.

going home, which, for that reason, perhaps, was After he was gone about a quarter of an hour | the only thing I desired in the world; for the he came in raving, and almost swearing, and in all grief of one absent comfort is oftentimes capable

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of embittering all the other enjoyments in the || horrence of the wickedness of my captain and world.

comrade, and some sober religious company I Here I enjoyed the moments which I had never || fell into, first gave me some knowledge of good before known how to employ, I mean, that here and evil, and showed me the beauty of a sober, I learned to look back upon a long ill-spent life, religious life, though, with my leaving that blessed with infinite advantage, which I had no country, it soon left me too; or, secondly, the heart given me till now to make use of, and here modest hints and just reflections of my steward, I found just reflections were the utmost felicity whom I called my tutor, who was a man of sinof human life.

cere religion, good principles, and a real true Here I wrote these memoirs, having to add to penitent for his past miscarriages: 0! had I the pleasure of looking back with due reflections | with him sincerely repented of what was past, I the benefit of a violent fit of the gout, which, as had not for twenty-four years together lived a it is allowed by most people, clears the head, re- || life of levity and profligate wickedness after it. stores the memory, and qualifies us to make the | But here I had (as I said) leisure to reflect, most, and just, and useful remarks upon our own and to repent, and to call to mind things past, actions.

and with a just detestation learn, as Job says, to Perhaps, when I wrote these things down, I did || abhor myself in dust and ashes. not foresee that the writings of our own stories | It is with this temper that I have written my would be so much the fashion in England, or so || story; I would have all that design to read it, agreeable to others to read, as I find custom and prepare to do so with the temper of penitents; the humour of the times has caused it to be; if | and remember, with how much advantage they any one that reads my story, pleases to make the || make their penitent reflections at home under same just reflections, which I acknowledge 1 || the merciful dispositions of Providence in peace, ought to have made, he will reap the benefit of || plenty, and ease, rather than abroad, under the my misfortunes, perhaps, more than I have done || discipline of a transported criminal, as my wife myself; it is evident, by a long series of changes and my tutor, or under the miseries and dis and turns, which have appeared in the narrow | tresses of a shipwrecked wanderer, as my skipper, compass of one private mean person's life, that or captain of the sloop, who (as I hear) died a the history of men's lives may be many ways || very great penitent, labouring in the deserts and made useful and instructing to those who read mountains to find his way home to Virginia by them, if moral and religious improvement and the way of Carolina, whither the rest of the crew reflections are made by those that write them. reached, after infinite dangers and hardships ; or

There remains many things in the course of in exile, however favourably circumstanced as this unhappy life of mine, though I have left so | mine, in absence from my family, and for some little a part of it to speak of, that is worth giving time in no probable view of ever seeing them any a large and distinct account of, and which gives more. room for just reflections of a kind which I have Such (I say) may repent with advantage ; but not made yet; particularly I think it just to add how few are they that seriously look in till their how, in collecting the various changes and turns | way is hedged up, and they have no other way to of my affairs. I saw, clearer than ever I had | look. done before, how an invincible, over-ruling power, Here ( I say) I had leisure to repent ; how far a hand influenced from above, governs all our || it pleases God to give the grace of repentance actions of every kind, limits all our designs, where he gives the opportunity of it, is not for and orders the events of everything relating to me to say of myself; it is sufficient that I recom

mend it to all that read this story, that, when And from this observation it necessarily oc

they find their lives come up in any degree to any curred to me how just it was that we should similitude of cases, they will inquire by me, and pay the homage of all events to him; that, as he ask themselves, is not this the time to repent ? guided, and had even made the chain of cause | Perhaps the answer may touch them. and consequences, which nature in general I have only to add what was then written, strictly obeyed, so to him should be given the

that my kind friend the Spaniard finding no honour of all events, the consequences of those ll other method presented for conveying me to my causes, as the first mover and maker of all home, that is to say, to Virginia, got a licence

for me to come in the next galleons as a Spanish I, who had hitherto lived, as might be truly merchant to Cadiz, where I arrived safe with all said, without God in the world, began now to see my treasure, for he suffered me to be at no exfarther into all those things than I had ever yet penses in his house ; and from Cadiz I soon got been capable of before, and this brought me at my passage on board an English merchant ship last to look with shame and blushes upon such a for London, from whence I sent an account of course of wickedness as I had gone through in my adventures to my wife, and where, in about the world: I had been bred indeed to nothing of

five months more, she came over to me, leaving, eith her religious or moral knowledge; what I had | with full satisfaction, the management of all our gained of either, was, first, by the little time of | affairs in Virginia in the same faithful hands as civil life which I lived in Scotland, where my ab- l) before.

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