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much worse than mine was, as the sequel will one would think I could not have been cheated, discover.
, and, indeed, I thought so myself, having a safe Well, I went with my friend, as I called her, into card at home, which I resolved not to quit unless Lancashire. All the way we went she caressed I could mend myself very much. However, in me with the utmost appearance of a sincere, un- ! all appearance, this brother was a match worth dissembled affection; treated me, except my listening to ; and the least his estate was valued coach hire, all the way; and her brother brought' at was a thousand a year, but the sister said it a gentleman's coach to Warrington to receive was worth fifteen hundred a year, and lay most us, and we were carried from thence to Liver- of it in Ireland. pool with as much ceremony as I could desire. I, that was a great fortune, and passed for such, We were also entertained at a merchant's house was above being asked how much my estate was; in Liverpool three or four days very handsomely. and my false friend, taking it upon a foolish I forbear to tell his name, because of what fol- || hearsay, had raised it from five hundred to five lowed. Then she told me she would carry me thousand, and by the time she came into the to an uncle's house of hers, where we should be country she called it fifteen thousand. The nobly entertained. She did so; her uncle, as | Irishman, for such I understood him to be, was she called him, sent a coach and four horses for stark mad at this bait. In short, he courted me, us, and we were carried near forty miles, I know made me presents, and run in debt like a madnot whither.
man for the expenses of his equipage and of his We came, however, to a gentleman's seat, courtship. He had, to give him his due, the where was a numerous family, a large park, ex-l appearance of an extraordinary fine gentleinan; traordinary company indeed, and where she was he was tall, well-shaped, and had an extraordi. called cousin. I told her if she had resolved to || nary address; talked as naturally of his park bring me into such company as this, she should and his stables, of his horses, his game-keepers, have let me have prepared myself, and have fur his woods, his tenants, and his servants, as if we nished myself with better clothes. The ladies had been in the mansion-house, and I had seen took notice of that, and told me very genteelly, || them all about me. they did not value people in their country so He never so much as asked me about my formuch by their clothes as they did in London ; || tune or estate; but he assured me that when we that their cousin had fully informed them of came to Dublin he would jointure me in six hunmy quality, and that I did not want clothes to dred pounds a year in good land; and that he set me off. In short, they entertained me not || would enter into a deed of settlement, or contract like what I was, but like what they thought I had here, for the performance of it. been, namely, a widow, a lady of a great for. This was such language, indeed, as I had not tune.
been used to, and I was here beaten out of all The first discovery I made here was, that the my measures. I had a she devil in my bosom, family were all Roman Catholics, and the cousin every hour telling me how great her brother too. Nothing in the world could behave better lived. One time she would come for my orders, to me, and I had all the civility shown me that I how I would have my coaches painted and how could have had if I had been of their opinion. lined; and another time what clothes my page The truth is, I had not so much principle of any should wear. In short, my eyes were dazzled, I kind as to be nice in point of religion, and I pre had now lost my power of saying no, and, to cut sently learned to speak favourably of the Romish the story short, i consented to be married; but, Church; particularly, I told them I saw little to be the more private, we were carried farther but the prejudice of education in all the differ- || into the country, and married by a Romish ences that were among Christians about religion ; clergyman, which I was assured would marry and if it had so happened that my father had been us as effectually as a church of England (par. a Roman Catholic, I doubted not that I should son. have been as well pleased with their religion I cannot say but I had some redections in this as my own.
affair, upon the dishonourable forsaking my This obliged them in the highest degree, and faithful citizen ; who loved me sincerely, and who as I was besieged day and night with good com
was endeavouring to quit himself of a scandalous pany and pleasant discourse, so I had two or || whore, by whom he had been indeed barbarously three old ladies that lay at me on the subject of used, and promised himself infinite happiness in his religion too. I was so complaisant, that though || new choice; which choice was now giving up I would not completely engage, yet I made no herself to another in a manner almost as scanscruple to be present at their mass, and to con- || dalous as hers could be. form to all their gestures as they showed me the But the glittering show of a great estate, and pattern; but I would not come too cheap, so of hne things, which the deceived creature that that I only in the main encouraged them to was now my deceiver represented every hour to expeet I would turn Roman Catholic if I was my imagination, hurried me away and gave me instructed in the Catholic doctrine, as they no time to think of London, or of anything there, called it, and so the matter rested.
| much less of the obligation I had to a person of I stayed here about six weeks ; and then my infinitely more real merit than what was now conductor led me back to a country village I before me. about six miles from Liverpool, where her bro. | But the thing was done, I was now in the arms ther, as she called him, came to visit me in his l of my new spouse, who appeared still the same own chariot, and in a very good figure, with two | as before ; great even to magnificence, and footmen in a good livery, and the next thing was nothing less than 1000. a year could support to make love to me. As it had bappened to me, I the ordinary equipage he appeared in.
After we had been married about a month hc ! but I had said several times that what I had was began to talk of my going to West Chester, in in my own disposal." order to embark for Ireland. However, he did | “I did so," returned 1, very quickly and not hurry me, for we stayed near three weeks hastily, “but I never told you I had anything longer, and then he sent to Chester for a coach called a fortune, no, not that I had 1001. or the to meet us at the Black Rock, as they called it, value of 1001, in the world; and how did it conover against Liverpool. Thither we went in a sist with my being a fortune," said I. * that fine boat they call a pinnace, with six oars, his should eome here into the north of England servants, and horses, and baggage going in the with you, only upon the account of living ferry-boat. He made his excuse to me, that he cheap ?” had no acquaintance at Chester, but he would At these words, which I spoke warm, and go before and get some handsome apartment for sighed, my husband, and her brother, as she me at a private house. I asked him how long called him, came into the room ; and I desired we should stay at Chester ? He said, not at all him to come and sit down, for I had something any longer than one night or two, but he would of moment to say before them both, which it was immediately hire a coach to go to Holyhead. || absolutely necessary he should hear. Then I told him he should by no means give
I He looked a little disturbed at the assurance himself the trouble to get private lodgings for with which I seemed to speak it, and came and one night or two, for that Chester being a great sat down by me, having first shut the door; place, I made no doubt but that there would be upon which I began, for I was very much provery good inns and accommodation enough; so voked, and turning mysclf to him, we lodged at an inn in the West street, not far L “ I am afraid,” says 1, “my dear," for I spoke from the cathedral, I forget what sign it was at. || with kindness on his side, “that you have a
Here my spouse, talking of my going to Ireland, I very great abuse put upon you, and an injury asked me if I had no affairs to settle at London done you never to be repaired, in your marrying before we went off. I told him no, not of any me, which, however, as I have had no hand in great consequence, but what might be done as it, I desire I may be fairly acquitted of it; and well by letters from Dublín. "Madam," says that the blame may lie where it ought to lie and he, very respectfully, “ I suppose the greatest part nowhere else, for I wash my hands of every part of your estate, which my sister tells me is most
of it.” of in money in the Bank of England, lies secure “What injury can be done me, my dear," enough ; but in case it be required transferring, says he,“ in marrying you? I hope it is to pay or any way altering its property, it might be honour and advantage every way." necessary to go up to London, and settle those “ I will soon explain it to you," says I, “and I things before we went over.
fear you will have no reason to think yourself I scemed to look strange at it, and told him I well used. But I will convince you, my dear," knew not what he meant; that I had no effects says I again, “that I have had no hand in it," in the Bank of England that I knew of, and I and there I stopped awhile. hoped he could not say that I had ever told him I He looked now scared and wild, and began, I had.
I believe, to suspect what followed; however, “ No," he said. “I had not told him so, but his looking towards me, and saying only, “Go on," sister hud said the greatest part of my estate lay | he sat silent, as if to hear what I had more to there. And I only mentioned it, my dear," said say; so I went on. he, “that if there was any occasion to settle it, “I asked you last night," said I, speaking to! or order anything about it, we might not be him, “if ever I made any boast to you of my obliged to the hazard and trouble of another estate, or ever told you I had any estate in the voyage back again," for, he added, that he did not || Bank of England, or anywhere else, and you care to venture me too much upon the sea. owned I had not, as is most true ; and I desire
I was surprised at this talk, and began to you will tell me here, before your sister, is ever consider very seriously what the meaning of it I gave you any reason from me to think so, or must be; and it presently occurred to me that ever we had any discourse about it;" and he that my friend, who called him brother, had re owned again I had not; but said, I had appeared presented me in colours which were not my due ;] always as a woman of fortune, and he depended and I thought, since it was come to that pitch, ll on it that I was so, and hoped he was not dethat I would know the bottom of it before I went ceived. out of England, and before I should put myself. “I am not inquiring yet whether you have into I knew not whose hands, in a strange been deceived or not,” said I; “I fear you hare, country.
and I too ; but I am clearing myself from the Upon this I called his sister into my chamber | unjust charge of being concerned in deceiving the next morning, and letting her know the dis you. I have been now asking your sister if course her brother and I had been upon the ever I told her of any fortune or estate I had, evening before, I conjured her to tell me what or gave her any particulars of it, and she owns she had said to him, and upon what foot it was I never did. And pray, madam," said I, turning that she had made this marriage.
myself to her, " be so just to me, before your She owned that she had told him that I was a brother, to charge me, if you can, if ever I pre great fortune, and said that she was told so in tended to you that I had an estate ; why, if I London.
had, should I come down into this country with “ Told so 199 says ), warmly; " did I ever tell you on purpose to spare that little I had, and you so ?"
I live cheap ?" "No," she said, “it was true I did not tell her so,!! She could not deny one word, but said she
had been told in London that I had a very that I saw nothing before us but ruin ; for as to great fortune, and that it lay in the Bank of me, it was my unhappiness that what little I had England.
was not able to relieve us for a week, and with " And now, dear sir," said I, turning myself to that I pulled out a bank bill of twenty poonds, and my new spouse again, “ be so just to me as to tell | eleven guineas, which I told him I had saved me who has abused both you and me so much || out of my little income ; and that by the as to make you believe I was a fortune, and account that creature had given me of the way prompt you to court me to this marriage ?" of living in that country, I cxpected it would
He could not speak a word, but pointed to maintain me three or four years; that if it was her, and after some more pause flew out in the | taken from me I should be left destitute, and he most furious passion that ever I saw a man in I knew what the condition of a woman among my life ; cursing her and calling her all the || strangers must be if she had no money in her whores and hard names he could think of; and pocket. However, I told hiin if he would take that she had ruined him, declaring that she had | it, there it was. told him I had fifteen thousand pounds, and that He told me with a great concern, and I she was to have five hundred pounds of him for thought I saw tears stand in his eyes, that he procuring this match for him. He then added, would not touch it, that he abhorred the thoughts directing his speech to me, that she was no of stripping me and making me miserable; that sister of his, but had been his whore for two on the contrary, he had fifty guineas left, which years before ; that she had had one hundred was all he had in the world, and he pulled it out pounds of him in part of this bargain, and that and threw it down on the table, bidding me take he was utterly undone if things were as I said ; || it, though he were to starve for the want of it. and in his raving he swore he would let her I returned, with the same concern for him, heart's blood out immediately, which frighted that I could not bear to hear him talk 80; that her and me too.
on the contrary, if he could propose any proShe cried, said she had been told so in the || bable method of living, I would do any thing house where I lodged; but this aggravated him that became me on my part, and that I would more than before, that she should put so far live as close and as narrow as he could desire. upon him, and run things such a length upon no. He begged of me to talk no more at that other authority than a hearsay; and then turn-| rate, for it would make him distracted; he said ing to me again, said very honestly, he was he was bred a gentleman, though he was reafraid we were both undone; “ for to be plain, || duced to a low fortune; and that there was but my dear, I have no estate," says he, “what little one way left which he could think of, and that I had, this devil has made me run out in waiting would not do unless I could answer him one on you, in putting me into this equipage." She question, which however, he said he would not took the opportunity of his being earnest in press me to. I told him I would answer it talking with me, and got out of the room, and I honestly; whether it would be to his satisfaction never saw her more.
Il or no, that I could not tell. I was confounded now as much as he, and “Why then, my dear, tell me plainly," says knew not what to say ; I thought inany ways be,“ will the little you have keep us together that I had the worst of it, but his saying he was in any figure, or in any station or place, or will it ondone, and that he had no estate neither, put not ?" me into a mere distraction.
It was my happiness hitherto that I had not " Why,” says I to him, “ this has been a discovered myself, or my circumstances at all. hellish juggle, for we are married here upon a | No, not so much as my name; and seeing there double fraud; you are undone by the disap- || was nothing to be expected from him, however pointment, it seems, and if I bad had a fortune 1 // good humoured, and however honest he seemed had been cheated too, for you say you have to be, but to live on what I knew would soon be nothing."
wasted, I resolved to conceal every thing but “ You would indeed have been cheated, my the bank bill and the eleven guineas which I had dear," says he, “but you would not have been owned; and I would have been very glad to undone, for fifteen thousand pounds would have | have lost that, and have been set down where maintained us handsomely in this country; and he took me up. I had, indeed, another bank I assure you," added he, “I had resolved to have bill about me of thirty pounds, which was the dedicated every groat of it to you; I would not whole of what I brought with me, as well to have wronged you of a shilling, and the rest I subsist on in the country, as not knowing what would have made up in my affection to you, and might offer ; because this creature, the gotenderness of you, as long as I lived."
between that had thus betrayed us both, had This was very honest indeed, and I really || made me believe strange things of marrying to believe he spoke as he intended, and that he my advantage in the country, and I was not was a man that was as well qualified to make willing to be without money whatever might me happy, as to his temper and behaviour, as happen. This bill I concealed, and that made any man ever was; but his having no estate, me freer of the rest, in consideration of his cir. and being run in debt on this ridiculous ac cumstances, for I really pitied him heartily. count in the country, made all the prospect But to return to his question ; I told him I dismal and dreadful, and I knew not what to say, never willingly deceived him, and I never would. or what to think of myself.
I was very sorry to tell him that the little I had I told him it was very unhappy, that so much would not. subsist us ; that it was not sufficient love, and so much good nature, as I discovered to subsist me alone in the south country ; and in him, should be thus precipitated into misery; ll that this was the reason that made me put
myself into the hands of that woman who called hither to be out of the observation of the people, him brother, she having assured me that I might || who had heard what I pretended to, and withal, board handsomely at a town called Manchester, 1 that nobody may ask me for money before I was where I had not yet been, for about six pounds || furnished to supply them.” a year; and my whole income not being above “But where, then," said I, “were we to have Sfteen pounds a year, I thought I might live easy ll gone next." upon it, and wait for better things.
" Why, my dear,” said he, “ I will confess the He shook his head and remained silent, and a whole scheme to you as I had laid it ; I purposed very melancholy evening we had ; however, we here to ask you something about your estate, as supped together and lay together that night, and you see I did, and when you, as I expected you when we had almost supped he looked a little would, had entered into some account with me of better and more cheerful, and called for a bottle || the particulars, I would have made an excuse to of wine.
you, to have put off our voyage to Ireland for " Come, my dear," says he, “though the case some time, and to have gone first towards is bad, it is to no purpose to be dejected—come, London. Then, my dear,” said he, “ I resolved be as easy as you can, I will endeavour to find to have confessed all the circumstances of ms out some way or other to live; if you can but own affairs to you, and let you know I had subsist yourself, that is better than nothing, 1|| indeed made use of these artifices to obtain your must try the world again; a man ought to think | consent to marry me, but have now nothing to do like a man. To be discouraged, is to yield to but to ask your pardon, and to tell you how the misfortune." With this, he filled his glass abundantly, as I have said above, I would endeaand drank to me, holding my hand and pressing vour to make you forget what was past by the it hard in his hand all the while the wine went felicity of the days to come.” down, and protesting afterwards his main concern “ Truly,” said I to him, “ I find you would was for me.
soon have conquered me; and it is my affliction It was really a true gallant spirit he was of, now that I am not in a condition to let you see and it was the more grievous to me. 'Tis some how easily I should have been reconciled to you, thing of relief even to be undone by a man of! and have passed by all the tricks you had put honour rather than by a scoundrel; but here upon me, in recompence of so much good hu. the greatest disappointment was on his side, mour. But my dear," said I, “ what can we do for he had really spent a great deal of money, I now? We are both undone, and what better are and it was remarkable on what poor terms she we for our being reconciled together, seeing we proceeded. First, the baseness of the creature have nothing to live on." herself is to be observed, who, for the getting of al! We proposed a great many things, but nothing hundred pounds herself,could be content to let him I could offer where there is nothing to begin with. spend three or four more, though perhaps it was all He begged me, at last, to talk no more of it, for he had in the world, and more than all, when she he said I would break his heart; so we talked had not the least ground, more than a little tea- || of other things a little, till at last he took a table chat, to say that I had an estate, or was husband's leave of me, and so we went to sleep. a fortune, or the like. It is true, the design of He rises before me in the morning, and indeed deluding a woman of fortune, if I had been so, having lain awake almost all night I was very was base enough. The putting the face of great sleepy, and lay till near eleven o'clock. In this things upon poor circumstances was a fraud, and time he took his horses and three servants, and bad enough, but the case a little differed too, I all his linen and baggage, and away he went, and that in his favour, for he was not a rake that leaving a short but moving letter for me on the made a trade to delude women, and, as some |table, as follows: have done, get six or seven fortunes, one after “My Dear, another, and then rifle and run away from them; || “I am a dog, I have abused you, but I have but he was already a gentleman, unfortunate and I been drawn in to do it by a base creature, conlow, but had lived well; and though if I had had | trary to my principle, and the general practice a fortune, I should have been enraged at the slut of my life. Forgive me, my dear! I ask your for betraying mc-yet, really for the man, her pardon with the greatest sincerity; I am the fortune would not have been ill-bestowed upon most miserable of men in having deluded you. him, for he was a lovely person indeed ; of ge I have been so happy as to possess you, and am nerous principles, good sense, and of abundance now so wretched as to be forced to fly from you. of good humour.
Forgive me, my dear; once more, I say, forgive We had a great deal of close conversation that me! I am not able to see you ruined by me, night, for we neither of us slept much; he was and myself unable to support you. Our maras penitent for having put all those cheats upon riage is nothing, I shall never be able to see you me as if it had been felony, and that he was again ; I here discharge you from it ; if you can going to execution. He offered me again every marry to your advantage, do not decline it ou shilling of the money he had about him, and my account. I here swear to you on my faith, said, he would go into the army and seek the and on the word of a man of honour, I will never world for more.
disturb your repose if I should know of it, which I asked him why he would be so unkind to is not likely. On the other hand, if you should carry me into Ireland, when I might suppose he not marry, and if good fortune should befall could not have subsisted me there? He took me, it shall be all yours wherever you are. me in his arms,“ my dear,” said he, " depend “ I have put some of the stock of money upon it, I never designed to go to Ireland at all, | have left into your pocket; take places for yourmuch less to have carried you thither; but came ll self and your maid in the stage-coach, and go
for London ; I hope it will bear your charges || I will go before a magistrate and make oath of thither, without breaking into your own. Again | it." I sincerely ask your pardon, and will do so as I then began to be amazed and surprised, and often as I shall ever think of you.
| indeed frightened, and told him what I had really "Adieu, my dear, for ever.
done, and how I had called after him as above. "I am yours most affectionately,
When we had amused ourselves awhile about
“J. E." this, I said to him : Nothing that ever befel me in my life sunk so “ Well, you shall go away from me no more; deep into my heart as this farewell. I reproached || I'll go all over the world with you rather." him a thousand times, in my thoughts, for leaving || He told me it would be a very difficult thing me; for I would have gone with him through for him to leave me, but since it must be, he the world, if I had begged my bread. I felt in hoped I would make it as easy to me as I could ; my pocket, and there I found ten guineas, his but as for him, it would be his destruction; that gold watch, and two little rings, one a small he foresaw. diamond ring, worth only about six pounds, and However, he told me that he considered he the other a plain gold ring.
had left me to travel to London alone, which was I sat me down and looked upon these things too long a journey; and that as he might as well two hours together, and scarcely spoke a word go that way as any way else, he was resolved to till my maid interrupted me by telling me my see me safe thither, or near it; and if he did go dinner was ready. I eat but little, and after away then without taking his leave, I should not dinner I fell into a vehement fit of crying, every i take it ill of him, and this he made me promise. now and then calling him by his name, which He told me how he had dismissed his three was James.
servants, sold their horses, and sent the fellows " O Jemmy!" said I, “come back, come back ; away to seek their fortunes, and all in a little I will give you all I have; I will beg, I will time, at a town on the road, I know not where; give you all I have; I will beg, I will starve and says he, “ It cost me some tears, all alone by with you !" and thus I ran raving about the | myself, to think how much happier they were room several times, and then sat down between than their master, for they could go to the next whiles, and then walking about again, called him gentleman's house to seek for a service; whereas," to come back, and then cried again ; and thus I said he, “I knew not whither to go, or what to passed the afternoon till about seven o'clock, do with myself." when it was near dusk in the evening, being I told him I was so completely miserable in August, when to my unspeakable surprise he parting with him, that I could not be worse ; comes back into the inn, but without a servant, and that now he was come again I would not go and comes directly into my chamber.
from him, if he would take me with him, let him It was in the greatest confusion imaginable, go whither he would, or do what he would ; and and so was I too; I could not imagine what in the meantime I agreed that we would go toshould be the occasion of it, and began to be at gether to London; but I could not be brought odds with myself whether to be glad or sorry; to consent he should go away at last, and not but my affection biassed all the rest, and it was take his leave of me, as he proposed to do; but impossible to conceal my joy, which was too told him, jesting, that if he did, I would call him great for smiles, for it burst out into tears. He back again as loud as I did before. Then I was no sooner entered the room, but he run to pulled out his watch and gave him back, and his me and took me in his arms, holding me fast and two rings, and his ten guineas ; but he would almost stopping my breath with his kisses, but not take them, which made me very much spoke not a word; at length I began :
suspect that he resolved to go off upon the road, "My dear,” said I, “ how could you go away and leave me. from me?" to which he gave no answer, for it The truth is, the circumstances he was in, the was impossible for him to speak.
passionate expressions of his letter, the kind, When our extasies were a little over, he told gentlemanly treatment I had from him in all the | me he was gone about fifteen miles, but it was affair, with the concern he showed for me in it, not in his power to go any farther without coming his manner of parting with that large share back to see me again, and to take his leave of me which he gave me of his little stock left; all once more.
these had joined to make such impressions on I told him how I had passed my time, and me, that I really loved him most tenderly, and how loud I had called him to come back again. I could not bear the thoughts of parting with He told me he heard me very plain upon Dela him. mere Forest, at a place about twelve miles off. Two days after this we quitted Chester, 1 in I smiled.
the stage-coach, and he on horseback; I dis" Nay," says he,“ do not think I am in jest ; missed my maid at Chester. He was very much for if ever I heard your voice in my life, I heard against my being without a maid, but she being you call me aloud, and sometimes I thought Il a servant' hired in the country, and I resolving saw you running after me."
to keep no servant at London, I told him it " Why," said I, “what did I say?" for I had would have been barbarous to have taken the not named the words to him.
poor wench, and have turned her away as soon “ You called aloud,” says he, and said, “ O as I came to town; and it would also have been Jemmy! O Jemmy! come back."
a needless charge on the road; so I satisfied I laughed at him. “ My dear,” says he, “ do him, and he was easy enough on that score. not laugh, for depend upon it, I heard your voice He came with me as far as Dunstable, within as plain as you hear mine now; if you please, ll thirty miles of London, and then he told me