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only said, Mrs Amy, go to your lady, tell her to | man that would come up to your price, and lived dine when and where she pleases, and pray obey | with one a considerable time, and was taken by her as your lady ; but let her know from me, several people to be his lawful wife. If any gentlethat she has lost the tenderness I had for her as | man should ask me what I have taken to my bed, a wife, by the little thought she had of her || what must I answer? I must say an inhuman children."
false-hearted whore, one that had not tenderness Nothing could have shocked me more than the | enough to own her own children, and has too delivery of this message by Amy; I, almost | little virtue, in my mind, to make a good wife. bathed in tears, went to him myself; found him | “I own I would,” says he, “ have settled in a melancholy posture, reading in Milton's your own estate upon you with great satisfac• Paradise Regained ;' he looked at me very || tion, but I will not do it now; you may retire to sternly when I entered his study, told me he | your chamber, and when I have any occasion to had nothing to say to me at that time, and if I speak with you, I will send a messenger to you; had a mind not to disturb him I must leave him so, my undeserving lady countess, you may walk for the present. “My lord," said I,“ supposing all out of the room.” that has been said by this girl was truth, what I was going to reply to all this, but instead of reason have you to be in this unforgiving hu- hearing me he began to speak against the Quaker, mour? What have I done to you to deserve who, he supposed, knew all the intrigues of my this usage? Have you found any fault with me
life ; but I cleared her innocence, by solemnly since I had the happiness of being married to declaring it was a thorough reformation of my you? Did you ever find me in any company
past life that carried me to live at the Quaker's that you did not approve of? Have you any
house, who knew nothing of me before I went to reason to think that I have wasted any of your live with her, and that she was I believed, a vir. substance? If you have none of these things
tuous woman. to allege against me, for heaven's sake do not I went away prodigiously chagrined. I knew let us now make our lives unhappy, for my having not what course to take, I found expostulation bad legitimate children by a lawful husband, at signified nothing, and all my hopes depended on a time that you think it no crime to have had a what I might say to him after we were gone to natural son by me, which I have the most reason bed at night. I sent in for Amy, and having to repent of."
told her our discourse, she said she knew not I spoke the latter part of these words with a what to think of him, but hoped it would, by small air of authority, that he might think me great submission, wear off by degrees. I could the less guilty; but, I believe, he only looked on eat but little dinner, and Amy was more sorrowwhat I had said as a piece of heroism; for hc
ful than hungry, and, after we had dined, we soon after delivered himself in the following walked by ourselves in the garden, to know what speech: “ Madam, do you not think that you | we had best pursue. As we were walking about, have used me in a very deceitful manner? If | Thomas came to us, and told us that the young you think that I have not had that usage I will, ll woman who had caused all the words had been in a few words, prove the contrary. When first
at the door, and delivered a letter to my lord's I knew you, soon after the jeweller's death at
footman, who had carried it up stairs, and that Paris, you never mentioned, in all that intricate
she was ordered to go to his lordship in his affair I was engaged in for you, so much as your
study, which struck me with a fresh and sensible having any children ; that, as your circumstances
grief. I told Thomas, as he was to be her brothen were, could have done you no harm, but,
ther, to learn what my lord had said to her, if on the contrary, it would have moved the com.
he could, as she came down ; on which he went passion of your bitter enemy, the Jew, if he had into the house to obey his order. any. Afterwards, when I first saw you in London, He was not gone in above a quarter of an and began to treat with you about marriage, 1 hour before he came to me again, and told me your children, which, to all prudent women, are she was gone, and that my lord had given her a the first things provided for, were so far neg | purse of twenty guineas, with orders to live relected as not to be spoken of, though mine were tired, let nobody know what or who she was, and mentioned to you ; and as our fortunes were come to him again in about a month's time. I very considerable, yours might very well have was very much satisfied to hear this, and was in been put into the opposite scale with them. I hopes of its proving a happy omen; and I was Another great piece of your injustice was, when better pleased about two hours after when I offered to settle your own fortune upon your. Thomas came to me, to let me know that my self, you would not consent to it; I do not lord had given him thirty guineas, and bid him look on that piece of condescension out of love take off his livery and new clothe himself, for to me, but a thorough hatred you had to your he intended to make him his first clerk, and put own flesh and blood; and lastly, your not own. him in the way of making his fortune. I now ing your daughter, though she strongly hinted thought it was impossible for me to be poor, and who she was to you, when she was twice in your was inwardly rejoiced that my children (mean. company, and even followed you from place to | ing Thomas and Susanna) were in the high place while you were in England. Now, if you | road to grow rich. can reconcile this piece of inhumanity with your. | As Amy and I had dined by ourselves, my lor self, pray try what you can say to me about your || kept his study all the day, and at night, after never telling me the life you led in Pall mail, in ll supper, Isabel came and told me that my lord's the character of Roxana ? You scrupled to be || man had received orders to make his bed in the happily married to me, and soon after came to Il crimson room, which name it received from the England, and was a reputed whore to any noble. Il colour of the bed and furniture, and was re
served against the coming of strangers, or sick- nours; I wondered at the reason of it, but could ness. When she had delivered her message she guess at nothing certain ; and at last she went withdrew, and I told Amy it would be to no away, but I fixed myself so as to see her as she purpose to go to him again, but I would have passed by me, and she appeared to have a coun. her lie in a small bed, which I ordered imme. tenance full of satisfaction. diately to be carried into my chamber. Before In the evening, when I went in as usual, he we went to bed, I went to his lordship to know spoke to me in a freer style than he had done why he would make us both look so little among since our breach. “Well, madam," (for he had our own servants, as to part bed and board so not used the words my lady' at any time after suddenly. He only said, “My lady Roxana my daughter's coming to our house,) said be, "I knows the airs of quality too well to be informed think I have provided for your daughter."_“As that a scandal among nobility does not consist in how, my lord, pray will you let me know ? " said parting of beds, to be now told it ; if you cannot | 1. “ Yes,” replied he, “as I have reason to lie by yourself, you may send a letter to my lord think you will be sorry to hear of her welfare in
- whom you lived with as a mistress in any shape; I will tell you. A gentleman who London, perhaps, he may want a bedfellow as well is going factor for the Dutch East India Comas you, and come to you at once ; you are too well pany, on the coast of Malabar, I have recomacquainted with him to stand upon ceremony." mended her to; and he, on my character and
I left him, with my heart full of malice, grief, promise of a good fortune, will marry her very shame, and revenge; I did not want a good will || soon; for the company's ships sail in about twelve to do any mischief; but I wanted an unlimited days; so, in a fortnight, like a great many mo. power to put all my wicked thoughts in exe thers as there are now-a-days, you may rejoice cution.
at having got rid of one of your children, though Amy and lay in our chamber, and the next you neither know where, how, or to whom.” morning, at breakfast, we were talking of what Although I was very glad my lord spoke to the servants (for there were thirteen of them in me at all, and more especially so at my daughter's all, viz. two coachmen, four footmen, a groom, going to be married, and settling in the Indies, and postillion, two women cooks, two house yet his words left so sharp a sting behind thein maids, and a laundry maid, besides Isabel, who as was exceeding troublesome to me to wear off. was my waiting-maid, and Amy, who acted as I did not dare venture to make any further enhousekeeper) could say of the disturbance that Il quiries, but was very glad of what I heard, and was in the family. “ Pho!” said Amy, “never || soon bidding my lord good night, went and found trouble your head about that, for family quarrels Amy, who was reading a play in the chamber. are so common in noblemen's houses, both here I waited with the greatest impatience for this and in England, that there are more families marriage ; and when I found the day was tixed, I parted, both in bed and board, than live lovingly | made bold to ask my lord if I should not be presnt together. It can be no surprise to the servants, ll in his chamber when the ceremony was performed? and if your neighbours should hear it, they will This favour was also denied me. I then asked only think you are imitating the air of nobility, || my lord's chaplain to speak to him on that head, and have more of that blood in you than you || but he was deaf to his importunities, and bade appeared to have when you and your lord lived him tell me that I very well knew his mind. happily together."
The wedding was performed on a Wednesday The time, I own, went very sluggishly on, I evening, in my lord's presence, and be permitted had no company but Amy and Isabel, and it nobody to be there but a sister of the bridewas given out among the servants of noblemen groom's, and Thomas, (now my lord's secretary and gentry that I was very much indisposed; or chief clerk.) who was brother to the bride, for I thought it a very improper time either to and who gave her away. They all supped toreceive or pay visits.
gether after the ceremony was over, in the great In this manner I lived till the month was up dining room, where the fortune was paid, which that my daughter was to come again to my lord, was 2,0001., (as I heard from Thomas afterfor although I went morning, noon, and night, wards,) and the bonds for the performance of into his apartment to see him, I seldom had a the marriage were re-delivered. quarter of an hour's discourse with him, and I Next morning my lord asked me if I was wiloftentimes one of his valets would be sent to tell || ling to see my daughter before she sailed to the me his lord was busy, a little before the time I || | Indies. “My lord,” said I, “as the seeing of usually went, which I found was to prevent my her was the occasion of this great breach that going in to him, but this was only when he was has happened between us, so, if your lordship in an ill. humour, as his man called it.
will let me have a sight of her and a recorWhether my lord used to make himself un ciliation with you at the same time, there is easy for want of mine, or other company, I nothing can be more desirable to me, or would cannot tell, but the servants complained every more contribute to my happiness during the rest day, as I heard by Amy, that his lordship eat of my life.” little or nothing, and would sometimes shed | “No, madam," says he, “I would have you tears when he sat down by himself to breakfast, I see your daughter, to be reconciled to her, and dinner, or supper; and, indeed, I began to think give her your blessing, (if a blessing can prothat he looked very thin, his countenance grew || ceed from you,) at parting; but our reconpale, and that he had every other sign of a ciliation will never be completed till ope of us grieved or broken heart.
comes near the verge of life, if then; for I am My daughter came to him one Monday morn a man that am never reconciled without ample ing, and stayed with him in his study near two amends, which is a thing that is not in your
power to give, without you can alter the course | was provided for too, and the son my lord had by of nature, and recall time."
me, who was now at the university, was at home; On hearing him declare himself so open, ill which I would have brought to pass, could my told him that my curse instead of my blessing || will be obeyed; but I was not to enjoy that would pursue my daughter, for being the au. happiness. thor of all the mischiefs that had happened My lord and I lived with a secret discontent of between us. “ No, madam," said he, “if you each other for near a twelvemonth, before I saw had looked upon her as a daughter heretofore, any provision made for my son Thomas, and then I should have had no occasion to have had any | I found my lord bought him a very large plantabreach with you; the whole fault lies at your || tion in Virginia, and was furnishing him to go own door; for whatever your griefs may in there in a handsome manner; he also gave him wardly be, I would have you recollect they four quarter parts, in four large trading Westwere of your own choosing.”
India vessels, in which he boarded a great quanI found I was going to give way to a very tity of merchandize to traffic with, when he violent passion, which would, perhaps, be the came to the end of his voyage ; so that he was a worse for me, so I left the room and went up very rich man, before he (what we call) came to my own chamber, not without venting bitter into the world. reproaches both against my daughter and her The last article that was to be managed, was unknown husband.
to engage my son to a wife, before he left Holland; However, the day she was to go on shipboard, and it happened that the gentleman who was sho breakfasted with my lord, and as soon as I the seller of the plantation my husband bought, it was over, and my lord was gone into his had been a Virginia planter in that colony a great study to fetch something out, I followed him || many years; but his life growing on the decline, there, and asked him if he would give me leave and his health very dubious, he had come to to present a gold repeating watch to my daughter | Holland with an intent to sell his plantation, and before she went away? I thought he seemed then had resolved to send for his wife, son, and somewhat pleased with this piece of condescen- || daughter, to come to him with the return of the sion in me, though it was done more to gain his next ships. This gentleman had brought over good will than to express any value I had for || with him the pictures of all his family, which he her. He told me that he did not know, who I || was showing to my lord, at the same time he was could better make such a present to, and I might || paying for the effects; and on seeing the give it to her if I pleased. Accordingly I went daughter's picture, which appeared to him very and got it out of my cabinet in a moment, and || beautiful, my lord enquired if she was married ; bringing it to my lord, desired he would give it • No my lord,” says tne planter, “but I believe I her from me. He asked me if I would not shall dispose of her soon after she comes to me." give it her myself? I told him no. I wished her -" How old is your daughter ?” said my lord. very well, but had nothing to say to her till I" Why my lord,” replied the planter, "she is was restored to his lordship's bed and board. twenty-two years of age.” Then my lord, asked
About two hours after all this, the coach was my son, if he should like that young lady for a ordered to the door, and my daughter, and her wife? “Nothing, my lord, said Thomas, could new husband, the husband's sister, and my son || lay a greater obligation upon me than your lordThomas, all went into it, in order to go to the ship's providing me with a wife." house of a rich uncle of the bridegroom's, where | “Now sir," said my lord to the planter, “what they were to dine before they went on board, do you say to a match between this young and my lord went there in a sedan about an hour gentleman and your daughter ? their ages are after, and having eaten their dinner, which on this agreeable, and if you can, or will, give her more occasion was the most elegant, they all went on fortune than he has, his shall be augmented ; board the Indiaman, where my lord and my son you partly know his substance, by the money I Thomas stayed till the ship's crew was hauling in have now paid you." their anchors to sail, and then came home This generous proposal of my lord's pleased the together in the coach, and it being late in the planter to a great degree, and he declared to my evening, he told Thomas, he should sup with | lord that he thought nothing could be a greater him that night; after which they went to bed in favour done him, for two reasons ; one of which their several apartments.
was, that he was certain the young gentleman Next morning when I went to see my lord, as was as good as he appeared, because he had usual, he told me, that as he had handsomely pro
taken, for his plantation, so large a sum of movided for my daughter, and sent her
ney, as none but a gentleman could pay. The with a man of merit and fortune, y daughter, and sent her to the Indies
rely next reason was, that this marriage, to be per wished her great prosperityand
formed as soon as my son arrived there, would prosperity: and he added, " To
"hould never have || be a great satisfaction to his wife, whose favou. parted from my first onesoments of
te of love to you, I rite the daughter was; “ For,” added he, “my
to censure for || wife will not only have the pleasure of secing hau be to pro- || her daughter settled on what was our own here.
ditary estate, but also see her married to a man
of substance, without the danger of crossing the @rse with seas to be matched to a person equal to herself."
“ Pray, sir,” said my lord, “let me hear what daughter had be well pleased ; to the Indies || fortune you are willing to give with your
daughter; you have but two children, and I know shen Thomasll you must be rich."-" Why, my lord,” replied
let you see, madam, that I sho
had you not laid yourself so open your misconduct, my next care s vide for your son Thomas in a ha before I concern myself with my sy
This was the subject of our which I was very well pleased;
homas, in a handsome manner,
been married a
Well planeed: I only wished my
before I had ma hope that the wo
red myself: but I began to
the planter, " there is no denying that; but you conversation with one of my lord's men, which must remember I have a son as well as a was not to her credit ; for it coming to his ears, daughter to provide for, and he I intend to turn she was turned out of the house by my lord's into the mercantile way as soon as he arrives safe orders, and was never suffered to come into it from Virginia. I have, my lord," continued he, again during his life-time, and I did not dare to "a very large stock in trade there, as warehouses speak a word in her favour, for fear he should of tobacco, &c. lodged in the custom-houses of retort upon me, like mistress like maid. the ports, to the value of 7,0001., to which I will I could hear nothing of Amy for the first three add 3,0001. in money, and I hope you will look
months after she had left me, till one day, as I upon that as a very competent estate ; and when I was looking out of a dining-room window, I saw the young gentleman's fortune is joined to that,
her pass by, but I did not dare ask her to come I believe he will be the richest man in the whole in, for fear my lord should hear of her being American colonies of his age.”
there, which would have been adding fuel to the It was then considered between my lord and fire; however, she looking up at the house saw Thomas, that no woman with a quarter of that me, I made a motion to her to stay a little about fortune, would venture herself over to the West the door, and in the mean time, I wrote a note, lodies with a man that had ten times as much ; ll and dropped it out of the window, in which I told so it being hinted to the planter that my lord her how I had lived in her absence, and desired had agreed to the proposals, they promised to her to write me a letter, and carry it the next meet the next morning to settle the affair. I
day to my semptress's house, who would take In the evening my lord, with Thomas in his care to deliver it to me herself. company, hinted the above discourse to me. I
I told Isabel, that she should let me know was frightened almost out of my wits to think 1. what a large sum of money had been laid out for 1
| when the milliner came again, for I had some my son ; but kept what I thought to myself. It'
complaints to her about getting up my best suit was agreed that my son was to marry the old ||
of Brussels lace night-clothes : on the Saturday planter's daughter, and a lawyer was sent for,
following, just after I had dined, Isabel came into with instructions to draw up all the writings |
my apartment. “My lady,” says she, “the mil.
liner is in the parlour, will you be pleased to have for the marriage settlement,' &c. and the next lli morning a messenger came from the planter ||
her sent up stairs, or will your ladyship be pleased
lito go down to her?"-" Why, send her up, with a note to my lord, letting him know, if it!! was not inconvenient, he would wait on his
Isabel,” said I, “she is as able to come to me, as lordship to breakfast; he came soon after with
I am to go to her, I will see her here." a Dutch merchant of great estate, who was our
When the milliner came into my chamber, I! neighbour at the Hague, where they settled
sent Isabel to my dressing-room to fetch a small
parcel of fine linen which lay there, and in the every point in question, and the articles were all drawn up and signed by the several parties
interim she gave me Amy's letter, which I pat
into my pocket, and having pretended to be the next day before dinner. There was nothing now remaining but my son's du
angry about my linen, I gave her the small bunn
dle Isabel brought, and bid her be sure to do departure to his new plantation in Virginia; great dispatch was made that he might be ready to
ihem better for the future. sail in one of his own ships, and take the advan-ll,
She promised me she would, and went about tage of an English convoy, which was almost her business, and when she was gone, I opened ready to sail. My lord sent several valuable pre
Amy's letter, and having read it, found it was to sents to my son's lady, as did her father; and as
the following purpose, viz. That she had opened I was at liberty in this case to do as I would. I a coffee-house, and furnished the upper part of and knowing my lord had a very great value for
|| it to let out in lodgings, that she kept two maids my son, I thought that the richer my presents
Il and a man, but that the trade of it did not an. were, the more he would esteem me, but there | swer as she had reason to expect ; she was will was nothing in it, the enmity he took against me ing to leave it off, and retire into the country to had taken root in his heart) so I sent her a cu settle for the rest of her life ; but was contirious set of china, the very best I could buy, with nually harassed by such disturbance in her cona silver tea-kettle and lamp, tea-pot, sugar-dish, // science as made her unfit to resolve upon any i cream-pot, tea-spoons, &c. and as my lord had thing, and wished there was a possibility for her sent a golden repeater, I added to it a golden
to see me, that she might open her mind with equipage, with my lord's picture hanging to it. || the same freedom as formerly, and have my finely painted. (This was another thing I did ll advice upon some particular attairs, and such like purposely to please him, but it would not do.)
ould not do discourse. A few days after he came to take his leave of It was a pretty while before I heard from Amy me, by my lord's order, and at my parting with again, and when I did, the letter was in much him I shed abundance of tears, to think I was the same strain as the former, excepting that then in an almost strange place, no child that things were coming more to a crisis, for she told could then come near me, and under so severe a me in it, that her money was so out, that is, lent ! displeasure of my lord, that I had very little as ready money to traders, and trusted for liquors hopes of ever being friends with him again. || in her house, that if she did not go away this
My life did not mend after my son was gone, quarter, she should be obliged to run away the all I could do would not persuade my lord te next. I very much lamented her unfortunate have any free conversation with me; and at this case, but that could be no assistance to her, as I juncture it was, that the foolish jade, Amy, who had it not now in my power to see her when I was now advanced in years, was eatched in a would, or give her what I pleased, as it had
always used to be; so all I could do was to wish lordship, and one of the main things that did help her well, and leave her to take care of herself. | 3 hasten his end; for he was observed, both by
About this time it was that I perceived my me and all his servants, to be more cast down at lord began to look very pale and meagre, and 1|| hearing of his losses, that were almost daily sent had a notion he was going into a consumption, to him, than he was at what had happened be. but did not dare tell him so, for fear he should tween him and me. say I was daily looking for his death, and was Nothing could give more uneasiness than the now overjoyed that I saw a shadow of it; never- damage our estate sustained by this traffic ; he theless, he soon after began to find himself in a looked upon it as a mere misfortune that no pervery bad state of health, for he said to me one | son could avoid; but I, besides that, thought it morning, that my care would not last long, for was a judgment upon me, to punish me, in the he believed he was seized by a distemper it was loss of all my ill-got gain; but when I found that impossible for him to get over. “My lord,” said his own fortune began to dwindle as well as I, “yon do not do me justice in imagining any. mine, I was almost ready to think it was possible thing concerning me that does not tend to your his lordship might have been as wicked a liver as own happiness, for if your body is out of order, I had, and the same vengeance as had been my mind suffers for it. Indeed had he died poured upon me for my repeated crimes, might then without making a will, it might have been also be a punishment for him. well for me, but he was not so near death as As his lordship was in a bad state of health, that; and, what was worse, the distemper, which and had removed to a country lodging, his study proved a consumption, (which was occasioned and counting-house, as well as his other rooms, chiefly by much study, watchings, melancholy were locked and sealed up; all business was laid thoughts, wilful and obstinate neglect of taking aside, excepting such letters as came to him, care of his body, and such like things ) held him were carried to his lordship to be opened, read, nine weeks and three days after this, before it and answered. I alao went to see him morning carried him off.
and evening, but be would not suffer me to stay He now took country lodgings, most delight with him a single night ; I might have had fully situated, both for air and prospect, and had another room in the same house, but was not a maid and man to attend him ; I begged on willing the people who kept it should know that my knees to go with him, but could not get that there was a misunderstanding between us, so I favour granted ; for, if I could, it might have been contented myself to be a constant visitor, but a means of restoring me to his favor, but our | could not persuade him to forgive me the denybreach was too wide to be thoroughly reconciled, ing of my daughter, and acting the part of Roxthough I used all the endearing ways I had ever ana, because I had kept those two things an inhad occasion for, to creep into his favour. I violable secret from him, and everybody else but
Before he went out of town, he locked and Amy, and it was carelessness in her conduct at sealed up every room in the house, excepting my last that was the foundation of all my future bed-chamber, dressing-room, one parlour, and all
misery. the offices and rooms belonging to the servants; As my lord's weakness increased, so his illand, as he had now all my substance in his temper, rather than diminish, increased also; I power, I was in a very poor state for a countess, I could do nothing to please him, and began to and began to wish, with great sincerity, that I think that he was only pettish because he found had never seen him, after I had lived so happy a it was his turn to go out of the world first. A life as I did at the Quaker's ; for notwithstanding gentleman that lived near him, as well as his our estates, joined together when we were first chaplain, persuaded him to have a physician, to married, announted to 3,3761. per annum, and know in what state his health was, and by all I near 18,0001, ready money, besides jewels, plate, could learn, the doctor told him to settle his goods, &c., of a considerable value, yet we had worldly affairs as soon as he conveniently could ; lived in a very high manner since our taking the “ For," says he, “although your death is not title of earl and countess upon us; setting up ali certain, still your life is very procarious." great house, and had a number of servants; our | The first thing he did after this was to send equipage, such as coach, chariot, horses, and their || for the son he had by me, from the university ; attendants; a handsome fortune my lord had she came the week afterwards, and the tutor with given to my daughter, and a very noble one to my him, to take care of his pupil. The next day son, whom he loved vory well, not for his being my || after, my lord came home, and sending for six son, but for the courteous behaviour of him, in eminent men that lived at the Hague; he made never aspiring to anything above a valet, after he ||his will, and signed it in the presence of them knew who he was, till my lord made him his secre- || all, and they, with the chaplain, were appointed tary, or clerk; besides all these expenses, my lord the executors of it, and guardians of my son. having flung himself into the trade to the Indies, ll As I was in a great concern at his making his both East and West, had sustained many great will unknown to me, and before we were friends, and uncommon losses, occasioned by his mer- ll I thought of it in too serious a manner not to chandize being mostly shipped in English bot. speak about it. I did not know where to apply toms, and that nation having declared war against first, but after mature consideration sont for the the crown of Spain, he was one of the first and chaplain, and he coming to me, I desired he greatest sufferers by that power; so that, on the would give me the best intelligence he could whole, our estate, which was as above, dwindled about it. “My lady,” said he, “you cannot be to about 1,0001. per annum, and our home stock, so unacquainted with the duty of my function, viz., about 17,0001., was entirely gone. This, I and the trust my lord has reposed in me, but you believe, was another great mortification to his must know I shall go beyond my trust in relating