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anything of that nature to you; all that I can say || cept it; I expect to be left in full possession of on that head is, that I would have you make one half of your fortune, that I may live the friends with my lord as soon as you possibly can, remainder of my life like your wife."- Madam," and get him to make another will, or else, take replied my lord, "you may expect what you the best care of yourself as lies in your power; / please. If you can make it appear, since I for I assure you, if his lordship dies, you are but found you out to be a jilt, that I have looked poorly provided for.
ll upon you as my wife, everything shall be altered These last words of the chaplain's most ter- and settled just as you desire, which might then ribly alarmed me; I knew not what to do, and, be called your will; but as the case now stands at last, as if I was to be guided by nothing but the will is mine, and so it shall remain," the furies, I went to his chamber; and after in- I thought I should have sunk when I had quiring how he did, and hearing that he was far heard him make this solemn and premeditated from well, I told him I heard he had made his declaration ; I raved like a mad-woman, and, at will. “ Yes,” said he, “I have, and what then?" || the end of my discourse, told him, that I did -“Why, my lord," replied I, “I thought it || not value what could happen to me, even if I would not have been derogatory to both our was forced to beg my bread, for I would stand honours for you to have mentioned it to me be-| the test of my own character; and as I could fore you did it, and have let me known in what | get nothing by being an honest woman, so I manner you intended to settle your estate; this should not scruple to declare, that the son you would have been but acting like a man to his have left what you have to is a bastard you had wife, even if you had married me without a for- || by me several years before we were married. tune; but as you received so handsomely with me, ll “Oh," says he, “madam, do you think you you ought to have considered it was my sub- | can frighten me ? No, not in the least; for if stance, as well as your own, that you were going you ever mention any thing of it, the title, as to dispose of.”
|| well as all the estate, will go to another branch My lord looked somewhat staggered at what || of my family, and you will then be left to starve I had said, and pausing a little while, answered, || in good earnest, without having the least glimpse that he thought, and also looked upon it as a of hope to better your fortune ; for," added he, granted opinion, that after a man married a wo- | “it is not very probable that you will be courted man, all that she was in possession of was his, for a wife by any man of substance at these excepting he had made a prior writing or settle-years; so if you have a mind to make yourself ment to her of any part or all she was then pos- | easy in your present circumstances, you must sessed of. “Besides, my lady,” added he, “Il rest contented with what I have left you, and have married both your children, and given them || not prove yourself a whore to ruin your child, very noble fortunes, especially your son; I have|| in whose power it will be to provide for you in also had great losses in trade, both by sea and || a handsome manner, provided you behave your. land, since you delivered your fortune to me, ll self with that respect to him and me as you ougbt and even at this time, notwithstanding the ap- || to do; for if any words arise about what I have pearance we make in the world, I am not worth || done, I shall make a fresh will, and, as the laws a third of what I was when we came to settle in ll of this nation will give me liberty, cut you off Holland ; and then, here is our own son shall be || with a shilling." provided for in a handsome manner by me, for I My own unhappiness, and his strong and last. am thoroughly convinced there will be but little ing resentment, had kept me at high words, and care taken of him if I leave anything in your flowing in tears, for some time, and as I was unpower for that purpose, witness Thomas and willing anybody should see me in that unhappy Susanna.”
condition, I stayed coolly talking to him, till our " My lord," said I, “ I am not come into your son, who had been to several gentlemen's houses chamber to know what care you have taken of about my lord's business, came home, to tell his our child; I do not doubt but you have acted father the success he had met with abroad. He like a father by it; what I would be informed brought in with him bank-notes to the amount in is, what I am to depend upon in case of your of 12,0001., which he had received of some merdecease, which I, however, hope, may be a great chants he held a correspondence with, at whicb many years off yet?"_“You need not concern | my lord was well pleased, for he was pretty near yourself about that,” said he; “ your son will out of money at this juncture, Afier our son take care that you shall not want. But yet, I had delivered the accounts and bills, and bad will tell you, too," said he,“ that it may prevent withdrew, I asked my lord, in a calm tone, to give your wishing for my death,-- I have iz mry will me the satisfaction of knowing in what manner left all I am possessed of in the world to my the losses he had complained to have suffered son, excepting 1.5001. ; out of that, there is consisted. “You must consider, my lord," said 5002 for you: 5002. among my executors, and I, “that according to what you have been pleased the other 5007, is to bury me, pay my funeral to inform me of, that we are upwards of 20002. expenses, and what is overplus I have ordered to per annum, besides about 17,000!. ready money, be equally divided among my servants."
poorer than we were when we firstcame to settle When I had heard him pronounce these words in Holland.” I stared like one that was frightened out of his “ You talk," replied my lord, “ in a very odd senses. “ Five hundred pounds for me !" says manner; do not you know that I had children of 1. “ Pray, what do you mean? What! am I, my own by a former wife, and of these I bare that brought you so handsome a fortune, to be taken so much care as to provide with very hande under the curb of my son, and ask him for every some fortunes, which are settled irrevocably upon penny I want. No, sir,” said I, “I will not ac- ll them; I have, Providence be thanked, given each
of them 5,0001., and that is laid in East India 11 I did so, but all I could say was no satisfaction, Stock, sufficient to keep them genteelly, above || till I importuned him on my knees, with a flood the frowns of fortune, and free from the fear of l of tears. “Madam," said he, “what would you want. This, joined to the money I mentioned to have me do?"_“Do, my lord,” said I, “only be you before, as losses at sea, deaths and bank so tender to my years and circumstances, as to ruptcies, your children's fortunes (which are alter your will, or, at least, add a codicil to it; I larger than my own children's), the buying the | desire nothing more, for I declare I had rather estate we live on, and several other things, which be a beggar, than live under my child's jurisdicmy receipts and notes will account for, as you tion.” To this he agreed with some reluctance, may see after my decease; I have, to oblige land he added a codicil to his will. vou, on this head, almost descended to particu- || This pleased me greatly and gave me comfort, lars, which I never thought to have done ; but for I dreaded nothing so much, after all my high as I have, rest yourself contented, and be well || living, as being under any person, relation, or assured, that I have not wilfully thrown any of stranger, and whether they exercised any power your substance away."
over me or not. I could not tell what he meant by saying, he I saw the lawyer come out of the chamber first, had not wilfully thrown any of my substance | but was above asking him any questions, the next away; these words puzzled me, for I found by were the executors and chaplain; I asked the his discourse I was to have but 5001. of all I had last how they came to have words: he did not brought him, at his decease, which I looked upon answer me directly, but begged to know whose to be near at hand. I had but one thing that pleasure it was to have the codicil annexed. was any satisfaction to me, which was this, I was _“ It was mine, sir," replied I, “and it made assured by him that he had not bestowed above me very uneasy before I could have the favour the 15,0001, he mentioned to me, on his children granted."--He only replied, by saying, “ Ah! by his former wife; and, on an exact calculation poor lady, the favour, as you are pleased to term he made it appear, that he had bestowed on my it, is not calculated for any benefit to you ; think son Thomas alone near 13,0001. in buying the the worst you can of it." plantation, shares in vessels, and merchandize, I was terribly uneasy at what the chaplain had besides several valuable presents sent to his said, but I imagined to myself that I could not wife, both by him and me; and as for my daughter be worse off than I thought I should be, before Susanna, she was very well married to a factor, the codicil was annexed; and, as he withdrew with a fortune of 2,0001., which was a great sum without saying any more, I was fain to rest satisof money for a woman to have, who was imme. fied with what I had heard, and that amounted diately to go to the East Indies; besides some to nothing. handsome presents given to her both by him and The next day after this, the physicians that me. In fact, her fortune was in proportion as attended my lord, told him, it was time for him large as her brother's, for there is but very few to settle his worldly affairs, and prepare himself women in England or Holland with 2,0001. for for an hereafter. I now found all was over, and tune, that would venture to the coast of Mala I had no other hopes of his life, than the physibar, even to have married an Indian king, much cian's declaration of his being near his death. more to have gone over with a person, that no For it often happens that the gentlemen of the one could tell what reception he might meet | faculty give out that a man is near his death, to with, or might be recalled at the pleasure of the make the cure appear to be the effect of their company upon the least distaste taken by the great skill in distempers and medicine ; as others merchants against him ; neither would I, though || when they cannot find out the real disease, give her own mother, binder her voyage, for she bad | out that a man's end is near, rather than discobeen the author of all the misfortunes that had | ver their want of judgment; and this I thought happened to me, and if my speaking a word | might be the case with our doctors of physic. would have saved her from the greatest torment, Our son was still kept from the University, I believe I should have been quite silent. And and lodged at the house of one of his future I have but one reason to allege for the girl's guardians; but when he heard that his father going so hazardous a voyage, which is, she knew || was so near his end, he was very little out of his that the match was proposed by my lord, and if || presence, for he dearly loved him. My lord he had no: thought it would have been advan- sent the day before his death, to lock and seal tageous for her, he would never have given || up all the doors in his dwelling-house at the 2,0001. to her husband as a fortune; and again, || Hague ; and the steward had orders, in case of as my lord was the only friend she had in our || my lord's decease, not to let anybody come in, family, she was cunning enough to know that the not even his lady (who had for some time lodged bare disobliging of him would have been her ruin || in the same house with her lord), without an for ever after; to which I may add, that it is | order from the executors. possible, as she had made so much mischief about The keys of the doors were carried to bim, me, she was glad to get what she could, and go || and as he saw his death approach, he prepared out of the way, for fear my lord and I should be || for it; and in fact, resigned up the keys of everyfriends; which, if that had happened, she would || thing to the executors, and having bid them have been told never to come to our house any || all a farewell, they were dismissed; the physimore.
cians waited, but as the verge of life approached, As my lord's death began to be daily the dis- l) and it was out of their power to do him any ser. course of the family, I thought that he might be | vice, he gave them a bill of 1001. for the care more reconciled if I entered into the arguments || they had taken of him, and dismissed them. again, pro and con, which we had together before; \ I now went into the chainber, and kneeling by his bed-side, kissed him with great earnestness,,ecutors to be my late lord's property, which were and begged of him, if ever I had disobliged him || worth, indeed, more than treble the sum I had in any respect, to forgive me. He sighed, and left me. said, he most freely forgave me everything that I l I immediately removed from the lodgings, and had reason to think I had offended him in ; but, || left them to bury the body when they thought he added, “ If you had been so open in your proper, and retired to a lodging at a private conversation to me before our marriage as to gentleman's house, about a inile from the Hague. discover your family and way of life, I know not || I was now resolved to find out Amy, being, as it but that I should have married you as I did; I were, at liberty; and accordingly went to the might now have been in a good state of health, house where she had lived, and finding that and you many years have lived with all the ho empty, inquired for her among the neighbours, nours due to the Countess de Wintselsheim." who gave various accounts of what had become These words drew tears from my eyes, and they of her; but one of them had a direction left at being the last of any consequence he said, they his house where she might be found. I went to had the greater impression upon me. He faintly | the place and found the house shut up, and all bid me a long farewell, and said, as he had but a the windows broken, the sign taken down, and the few moments to live, he hoped I would retire, rails and benches pulled from before the door, and leave him with our son and chaplain. I was quite ashamed to ask for ber there, for it withdrew into my own chamber, almost drowned | was a very scandalous neighbourhood, and Iconin tears, and my son soon followed me out, leav- cluded that Amy had been brought to low cir. ing the chaplain with his father, offering up his cumstances, and had kept a house of ill-fame, and prayers to heaven for the receiving of his soul | was either run away herself, or was forced to it into the blessed mansions of eternal bliss. by the officers of justice. However, as nobody
A few minutes after, our son went into the | knew me here, I went into a shop to buy some chamber with me again, and received his father's trifles, and asked who had lived in the opposite last blessing. The chaplain now saw him depart. house (meaning Amy's). “ Really, madam," says ing, and was reading the prayer ordered by the the woman, “I do not well know; but it was a church for that occasion ; and while he was doing woman who kept girls for gentlemen ; she went on it, my lord laid his head gently on the pillow, and in that wickedness for some time, till a gentle. turning on his left side, departed this life with all man was robbed there of his watch and a diamond the calmness of a composed mind, without so ring, on which the women were all taken up and much as a groan, in the fifty-seventh year of his committed to the house of correction ; but the age.
young ones are now at liberty, and keep about As soon as he was dead, an undertaker was the town."_“ Pray," said I, “what may have sent for, by order of the executors, who met to. become of the old beast that could be the ruin gether immediately to open his will, and take of those young creatures?"_" Why, I do not care of all my son's effects. I was present when well know," says she ; “but I have heard, that as ; it was opened and read; but how terribly I was | all her goods were seized upon, she was sent to frightened at hearing the codicil repeated any the poor-house; but it soon after appearing that person may imagine by the substance of it, which she had the French disease to a violent degree, was to this effect :- That if I had given me any was removed to an hospital to be taken care of, more after his decease than the 5001. he had left but I believe she will never live to come out; me, the 5001. left to his executors, and the 10001.) and if she should be so fortunate, the gentleman of my son's estate, (which was now a vear's in. | that was robbed, finding that she was the guilty terest,) was to be given to such poor families at person, intends to prosccute her to the utmost the Hague as were judged to be in the greatest rigour of the law. want of it ; not to be divided in equal sums, but I was sadly surprised to hear this character of every family to have according to their merit and Amy; for I thought whatever honse she might: necessity. But this was not all; my son was keep, that the high-day of her blood bad been tied down much harder; for if it was known that over ; but I found that she had not been willing he gave me any relief, let my condition be ever to be taken for an old woman, though near sixty so bad, either by himself, by his order, or in any years of age; and my not seeing or hearing from manner of way, device, or contrivance that he her for some time past was a confirmation of could think of, one half of his estate, which was what had been told me. I went home sadly de. ! particularly mentioned, was to devolve to the ex. ll jected, considering how I might hear of her; I ecutors for ever; and if they granted me ever had known her for a faithful servant to me, in all so small a favour, that sum was to be equally ! my bad and good fortune, and was sorry that at divided among the several parishes where they | the last such a miserable end should overtake lived, for the benefit of the poor.
her, though she, as well as I, deserved it several Any person would have been surprised to have ll years before. seen how we all sat staring at each other; for | A few days after, I went pretty near the place though it was signed by all the executors, yet || I had heard she was, and hired a poor woman to they did not know the substance of it till it was I go and inquire how Amy - did, and whepublicly read, excepting the chaplain ; and he, as ther she was likely to do well. The woman reI mentioned before, had told me the codicil had || turned, and told me, that the matron, or mis better never have been added.
tress, said, the person I enquired after died in I was now in a fine dilemina; had the title of a salivation two days before, and was buried the a countess, with 5001., and nothing else to sub- last night in the cemetary belonging to the hospital. sist on, but a very good wardrobe of clothes, | I was very sorry to hear of Amy's unhappy! which were not looked upon by my son and the ex- || and miserable death; for when she came first
into my service, she was really a sober girl, very to advantage, but could fix on nothing; forit always witty and brisk, but never impudent, and her happens that when people have but a trifle, they aotions in general were good, till my forcing her, I are very dubious in the disposal of it. is it were, to have an intrigue with the jeweller. || Having been long resolving in my mind, I at She had also lived with me between thirty and last fixed on merchandize as the most genteel orty years, in the several stages of life as I had and profitable of anything else. Accordingly, I passed through; and, as I had done nothing but I went to a merchant who was intimate with my what she was privy to, so she was the best per-| late lord, and letting him know how my circumson in the universal world to consult with and stances were, he heartily condoled with me, and take advice from, as my circumstances now told me he could help me to a share in two ships, were,
one was going a trading voyage to the coast of I returned to my lodgings much chagrined, Africa, and the other a privateering. I was now and very disconsolate; for, as I had for several in a dilemma, and was willing to have a share in years lived at the pinnacle of splendour and satis the trader, but was dubious of being concerned faction, it was a prodigious heart-break to me || in the privateer ; for I had heard strange stories now to fall from upwards of 3,0001. per annum told of the gentlemen concerned in that way of to a poor 5001. principal.
business. Nay, I had been told, but with what A few days after this I went to see my son, the certainty I cannot aver that there was a set of men Earl of Wintselsheim; he received me in a very who took upon them to insure ships, and as they courteous (though far from a dutiful) manner; always knew to what port they are bound, notice we talked together near an hour upon general was sent to their correspondent abroad, to order things, but had no particular discourse about my out their privateers on the coast the others sailed, late lord's effects, as I wanted to have. Ainong 1 and they knowing the loading, and the number other things he told me, that his guardians had of hands and guns were on board, soon made advised him to go to the university for four years prizes of the vessels, and the profits were equally longer, when he would come of age, and his divided, after paying what was paid for their inestate would be somewhat repaired; to which he surance, among them all. said he had agreed : and for that purpose, all However, I at last resolved, by the merchant's the household goods and equipages were to be advice, to have a share in the trader, and the disposed of the next week, and the servants dis next day he over-persuaded me to have a share missed. I immediately asked, if it would be in the privateer also. But that I may not lay looked upon as an encroachment upon his father's out my money before I have it, it may not be will if I took Isabel (who had been my waiting amiss to observe, that I went to the executors maid ever since I came from England) to live and received my 5001. at an hour's notice, and with me. “No, my lady," very readily replied then went to the merchant's, to know what the he, “as she will be dismissed from me, she is || shares would come to, and being told 1,5001., I certainly at liberty and full freedom to do for || was resolved to raise the money ; so I went home, herself as soon and in the best manner she pos and, with my inaid Isabel, in two days' time dissibly can." After this I staid about a quarter of || posed of as many of my clothes as fetched me an hour with him, and then I sent for Isabel, to near 1,1001., wbich, joined to the above sum, I know if she would come and live with me on her carried to the merchant's, where the writings disinission from her lord's. The girl readily con were drawn, signed, sealed, and delivered to me, sented, for I had always been a good mistress to in the presence of two witnesses, who went with her; and then I went to my own lodgings in my me for that purpose. The ships were near ready son's coach, which he had ordered to be got for sailing ; the trader was so well manned and ready to carry me home.
armed, as well as the privateer, that the partners Isabel came, according to appointment, about would not consent to insure them, and out they ten days after, and told me the house was quite both sailed, though from different ports, and I cleared both of men and movables, but said, her depended on getting a good estate between lord (meaning my son) was not gone to the uni them. versity as yet, but was at one of his guardian's When I was about this last ship, a letter came houses, where he would stay about a month, and from the count, my son, full of tender expressions that he intended to make a visit before his de. of his duty to me, in which I was informed, that parture, which he did, attended by my late chap he was going again to the university at Paris, lain ; and I being in handsome lodgings, received where he should remain four years; after that, them with all the complaisance and love as was lhe intended to make the tour of Europe, and possible, telling them, that time and circum then come and settle at the Hague. I returned stances having greatly varicd with me, whatever II him thanks in a letter for his compliment, wished they saw amiss, I hoped they would be so good!l him all happiness, and a safe return to Holland. as to look over it at that time, by considering the land desired that he would write to me from time unhappy situation of my affairs.
to time, that I might hear of his welfare, which After this visit was over, and I had myself and was all I could now expect of him. But this Isabel to provide for, handsome lodgings to keep, was the last time I heard from him, or he from (which were as expensive as they were fine), and me. nothing but my principal money to live on, (1 In about a month's time, the news came that mean what I happened to have in my pocket at the privateer (which sailed under British colours, my lord's death, for I had not been paid my land was divided into eight shares,) had taken a 5001. as yet,) I could not manage for a genteel liship, and was bringing it into the Texel, but that maintenance as I had done some vears before. Illit accidentally foundered, and, being chained to thought of divers things to lay my small sums out ll the privatecr, had, in sinking, like to have lost
that too. Two or three of the hands got on || creatures. And further to hasten our removing shore, and came to the Hague ; but how terribly || to Amsterdam, I recollected I was involved in I was alarmed, any one may judge, when I heard || debt, for money to purchase a share in the New the ship the privateer had was the Newfound. || foundland trader, which was lost, and my credin land, merchantman, as I had bought two shares intors daily threatened me with an arrest to make out of four. About two months after, news was cur- | me pay them. rent about the Hague, of a privateer or merchant- || I soon discharged my lodgings, and went with man, one of them of the town, though not known || Isabel to Amsterdam, where I thought, as I was which, having an engagement in the Mediterra- || advanced in years, to give up all I could raise in nean, in which action, both the privateer and the world, and on the sale of every thing I had, trader was lost. Soon after, their names were to go into one of the Proveniers' Houses, where I publicly known, and, in the end, my partners heard / should be settled for life; but as I could not prothat they were our ships, and unhappily sailing || duce money enough for it, I turned it into a under false colours, (a thing often practised in coffee-house near the Stadt House, where | the time of war), and never having seen each might have done well ; but as soon as I was other, had at meeting, a very smart engagement, || settled, one of my Hague creditors arrested me each fighting for life and honour, till two unfor- || for a debt of 751., and I not having a friend in the tunate shots, one of them, viz. the privateer was world of whom to raise the money, was, in a sunk by a shot between wind and water, and the || shameful condition, carried to the common jail, trader unhappily blown up by a ball falling in | where poor Isabel followed me with showers of the powder-room; there were only two hands tears, and left me inconsolable for my great misof the trader, and three of the privateer that | fortunes, Here, without some very unforeseen escaped, and they all fortunately met at one of | accident, I shall never go out of it until I am the partner's houses, where they confirmed the || carried to my grave, for which may my much oltruth of this melancholy story, and to me a fatal | fended God prepare me as soon as possible. loss.
What was to be done now? I had no money, The Continuation of the Life of Roxana, by and but few clothes left, there was no hope of Isabel Johnson, who had been her waiting subsistence from my son or his guardians, they maid, from the time she was thrown into were tied down to be spectators of my misfor jail to the time of her death. tunes, without affording me any redress, even if they would.
After my lady, as it was my duty to call her, Isabel, though I was now reduced to the last || was thrown into jail for a debt she was unable penny, would live with me still, and, as I ob- || to pay, she gave her mind wholly up to devotion, served before, and may now repeat, I was in a | whether it was from a thorough sense of her pretty situation to begin the world ; upwards of l wretched state, or any other reason I could sixty years of age, friendless, scanty of clothes, ll never learn ; but this I may say, that she was ! and but very little money.
sincere penitent, and in every action had all the I proposed to Isabel to remove from lodgings, || behaviour of a Christian : by degrees all te and retire to Amsterdain, where I was not known, ll things she had in the world were sold, and the and might turn myself into some little way of || began to find an inward decay upon her spirits, business, and work for that bread now, which || In this interval she repeated all the passages of had been too often squandered away upon very || her ill spent life to me, and thoroughly repented trifles. And upon consideration, I found myself || of every bad action, especially the little value in a worse condition than I thought, for I had || she had for her children, which were honestly nothing to recommend me to Heaven, either in ll born and bred. And having, as she believed, works or thoughts; had even banished from my || made her peace with God, she died with mere mind all the cardinal and moral virtues, and had || grief, on the 2d of July 1742, in the sixty-tuto much more reason to hide myself from the sight || year of her age, and was decently buried by me of God, if possible, than I had to leave the in the churchyard belonging to the Lulberaus Hague, that I might not be known of my fellow ll in the city of Amsterdam.