oblige the most grateful man alive :” and, with || possible for me to grant, so he gave me leave to that, he took me in his arms. I can go no fur lise as much freedom with him another way, and ther in the particulars of what passed at that that was to have everything of him I thought fit time, but it ended in this, that, in short, I lay | to command; and yet I did not ask of him with with him all that night.

an air of avarice, as if I was greedily making a I have given you the whole detail of this story penny of him, but I managed him with such art to lay it down as a black scheme of the way how that he generally anticipated my demands. He unhappy women are ruined by great men; for only requested of me that I would not think of though poverty and want is an irresistible tempt taking another house, as I had intimated to his ation to the poor, vanity and great things are as highness I intended to do, not thinking it good irresistible to others. To be courted by a prince, || enough to receive his visits in; but he said my and by a prince who was first a benefactor and house sras the most convenient that could possi. then an admirer; to be called handsome, the | bly be found in all Paris for an amour, especially finest woman in France, and to be treated as a for him, having a way out into three streets, and woman fit for the bed of a prince; these are not overlooked by any neighbours, so that he things a woman must have no vanity in her, nay, || could pass and repass without observation; for one no corruption in her, that is not overcome by it; || of the back ways opened into a narrow dark alley, and my case was such that, as before, I had which alley was a thoroughfare or passage out enough of both.

of one street into another; and any person that I had now no poverty attending me; on the went in or out by the door had no more to do contrary, I was mistress of ten thousand pounds but to see that there was nobody following him before the prince did anything for me. Had in the alley before he went in at the door. This been mistress of my resolution; had I been less request I knew was reasonable, and therefore I obliging, and rejected the first attack, all had assured him I would not change my dwelling, been safe ; but my virtue was lost before, and seeing his highness did not think it too mean for the devil, who had found the way to break in me to receive him in. upon me by one temptation, easily mastered me He also desired me that I would not take any now by another; and I gave myself up to a per- more servants, or set up any equipage, at least son, who, though a man of high dignity, was yet for the present ; for that it would then be immethe most tempting and obliging that ever I met diately concluded I had been left very rich, and with in my life.

then I should be thronged with the impertinence I had the same particulars to insist upon here of admirers, who would be attracted by the mowith the prince as I had with my gentleman be- ney, as well as by the beauty of a young widow, forc. I hesitated much at consenting at first and he should be frequently interrupted in his asking, but the prince told me princes did not visits; or that the world would conclude I was court like other men; that they brought more maintained by somebody, and would be indefa. powerful arguments; and he very prettily added, tigable to find out the person ; so that he should that they were sooner repulsed than other men, have spies peeping at him every time he went and ought to be sooner complied with; intimat-| out or in, which it would be impossible to disaping, though very gentcely, that after a woman point; and that he should presently have it talked had positively refused him once, he could not, I over all the toilets in Paris that the Prince like other men, wait with importunities and ide ---- had got the jeweller's widow for a mis. stratagems, and laying long sieges; but as such tress. nien as he stormed warmly, so, if repulsed, they i This was too just to oppose, and I made no made no second attacks: and, indeed, it was scruple to tell his higbness that since he had reasonable; for as it was below their rank to be stooped so low as to make me his own, he ought long battering a woman's constancy, so they ran to have all the satisfaction in the world ; that I greator hazards in being exposed in their ainours was all his own; that I would take all the meathan other men did.

sures he should please to direct me to avoid the I took this for a satisfactory answer, and told | impertinent attacks of others; and that, if he his highness that I had the same thoughts in re. l thought fit, I would be wholly within doors, and spect to the manner of his attacks; for that his have it given out that I was obliged to go to person and his arguments were irresistible; that || England to solicit my affairs there, after my husa person of his rank, and a munificence so un. || band's misfortunes, and that I was not expected bounded, could not be withstood ; that no virtue | there again for at least a year or two. This he was proof against him, except such as was able || liked very well, only he said that he would by to suffer martyrdom ; that I thought it impossible || no means have me confined; that it would injure I could be overcome, but that now I found it my health, and that I should then take a country impossible I should not be overcome; that so house in some village, a good way from the city, much goodness, joined with so much greatness, l, where it should not be known who I was, and would have conquered a saint; and that I con- that he should be there sometimes to divert me. fcss he had the victory over me, by a merit infi- || I made no scruple of the confinement, and told nitely superior to the conquest he had made. his highness no place could be a confinement

He made me a most obliging answer; told me where I had such a visitor, and so I put off the abundance of fine things, which still flattered my country house, which would have been to remove vanity, till at last I began to have pride enough I myself further from him, and have less of his to believe him, and fancied myself a bit mistress company; so I made the house be, as it were, for a prince.

shut up. Amy, indeed, appeared, and when any As I had thus given the prince the last favour. Il of the neighbours or servants enquired, she anand he had all the fren

all the freedom with me that it was 'swered, in broken French, that I was gone to England to look after my affairs, which presently || another; nor could I go to confession, who knew went current through the streets about us. For nothing of the manner of it, and should betray you are to note, that the people of Paris, l myself to the priest to be an Hugonot, and especially the women, are the most busy and then might come into trouble; but, in short, impertinent inquirers into the conduct of their though I was a whore, yet I was a Protestant neighbours, especially that of a single woman, whore, and could not act as if I was Popish, upon that are in the world, though there are no greater | any account whatsoever. intriguers in the universe than themselves; and But, I say, I satisfied myself with the surprising perhaps that may be the reason of it, for it is an occasion, that, as it was all irresistible, so it was old but a sure rule, that,

all lawful; for that heaven would not suffer us to ** When deep intrigues are close and shy,

be punished for that which it was not possible The guilty are the first that spy."

for us to avoid ; and with these absurdities I Thus his highness had the most easy, and yet ||

od vetll kept conscience from giving me any considerable the most undiscoverable access to me imaginable,

disturbance in all this matter; and I was as perand he seldom failed to come two or three nights

fectly easy as to the låwfulness of it, as if I bad in a week, and sometimes stayed two or three

been married to the prince, and had had no other nights together. Once he told me he was re

husband: so possible is it for us to roll ourselves solved I should be weary of his company, and

up in wickedness, till we grow in vulnerable that he would learn to know what it was to be a

by conscience; and that sentinel once dozed, prisoner; so he gave out among his servants

sleeps fast, not to be awakened while the tide of that he was gone to

where he often went Il pleasure continues to fiow, or till something dark a hunting, and that he should not return under a

and dreadful brings us to ourselves again. fortnight; and that fortnight he stayed wholly

I have, I confess, wondered at the stupidity with me, and never went out of my doors.

that my intellectual part was under all that Never woman, in such a station, lived a fort

while; what lethargic fumes dozed the soul; and night in so complete a fulness of human delight;

how it was possible that I, who in the case before, for to have the entire possession of one of the

where the temptation was many ways more most accomplished princes in the world, and of

forcible, and the arguments stronger, and more the politest best-bred man ; to converse with him

irresistible, was yet under a continued inquietude, all day, and as he professed, charm him all night;

on account of the wicked life I led, could now what could be more inexpressibly pleasing, and

live in the most profound tranquillity, and with an especially to a woman of a vast deal of pride, as I

uninterrupted peace, nay, even rising up to satis. was?

faction and joy, and yet in a more palpable state To finish the felicity of this part, I must not

of adultery than before; for before, my gentleforget that the devil had played a new game with

man, who called me wife, had the pretence of his me, and prevailed with me to satisfy myself with

wife being parted from him, refusing to do the this amour, as a lawful thing; that a prince of

duty of her office as a wife to him. As for me, such grandeur and majesty, so infinitely superior

my circumstances were the same; but as for the to me, and one who had made such an introduc

prince, as he had a fine and extraordinary lady, tion by an unparalleled bounty, I could not

or princess, of his own, so he had two or three resist : and therefore, that it was very lawful for

mistresses more besides me, and made no scruple me to do it, being at this time perfectly single,

of it at all. and unengaged to any other man, as I was, most

However, I say, as to my own part, I enjoyed certainly, by the unaccountable absence of my

myself in perfect tranquillity; and as the prince first husband, and the murder of my gentleman

was the only deity I worshipped, so I was really who went for my second.

I his idol; and however it was with his princess, I It cannot be doubted but that I was the easier

assure you his other mistresses found a sensible to persuade myself of the truth of such a doctrine

difference, and though they could never find me as this, when it was so much for my ease, and

out, yet I had good intelligence that they guessed for the repose of my mind, to have it be so.

very well that their lord had got some new fa

vourite that robbed them of his company, and, “In things we wish, 'tis easy to deceive,

perhaps, of some of his usual bounty too. And What we would have we willingly believe."

now I must mention the sacrifices he made to Besides, I had no casuists to resolve this doubt; his idol, and they were not a few, I assure you. the same devil that put this into my head bade As he loved like a prince, so he rewarded like me go to any of the Romish clergy, and, under a prince, for though he declined my making a the pretence of confession, state the case exactly, Il figure, as above, he let me see that he was above and I should see they would either resolve it to doing it for the saving the expense of it, and so be no sin at all, or absolve me upon the easiest | he told me, and that he would make it up in penance. This I had a strong inclination to try, other things. First of all, he sent me a toilet, but I know not what scruple put me off to it, with the appurtenances of silver, even so much for I could never bring myself to like having to as the frame of the table; and then for the house do with those priests; and though it was strange || he gave me the table, or sideboard of plate I menthat I, who had thus prostituted my chastity, tioned above, with all things belonging to it, of and given up all sense of virtue, in two such par- | massy silver, so that, in short, I could not for my ticular cases, living a life of open adultery, should | life study to ask him for anything of plate which scruple anything; yet so it was. I argued with || I had not. myself that I could not be a cheat in anything He could then accommodate me in nothing that was esteemed sacred; that I could not be more but jewels and clothes, or money for clothes; of one opinion, and then pretend myself to be of he sent his gentleman to the mercer's, and bought

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me a suit, or whole piece, of the finest brocaded || as he saw the tears drop down my cheeks, he silk, figured with gold, and another with silver, || pulls out a fine cambric handkerchief, and was and another of crimson, so that I had three suits ll going to wipe the tears off, but checked his hand, of clothes, such as the queen of France would as if he was afraid to deface something; nay, he not have disdained to have worn at that time; checked his hand, and tossed the handkerchief to yet I went out nowhere; but as those were for me to do it myself. I took the hint immediately, me to put on when I went out of mourning, -1 and with a kind of pleasant disdain, “ How, my dressed myself in them, one after another, always | lord,” said ), “have you kissed me so often, and when bis highness came to see me.

don't you know whether I am painted or not? I had no less than five several morning dresses || Pray let your highness satisfy yourself that you besides these, so that I need never be seen twice have no cheats put upon you; for once let me in the same dress; to these he added several be vain enough to say, I have not deceived you parcels of fine linen and of lace, so much that I with false colours.” With this, I put a handker. had no room to ask for more, or, indeed, for so chief into his hand, and taking his hand into much.

mine, I made him wipe my face so hard that he I took the liberty once, in our freedoms, to tell was unwilling to do it, for fear of hurting me. him he was too bountiful, and that I was too He appeared surprised more than ever, and chargeable to him for a mistress, and that I would || swore, which was the first time that I had heard be his faithful servant at less expense to him; || him swear from my first knowing him, that he and that he not only left me no room to ask him could not have believed there was any such skin for anything, but that he supplied me with such | without paint in the world. “Well, my lord," a profusion of good things that I scarce could |said I, “your highness shall have a further dewear them, or use them unless I kept a great monstration than this; as to that which you are equipage, which he knew was no way convenient || pleased to accept for beauty, it is the mere work for him or for me: he smiled, and took me in of nature;” and with that I stepped to the door, his arms, and told me he was resolved, while 1 || and rung a little bell for Amy, and bid her bring was his, I should never be able to ask him for me a cup full of hot water, which she did; and anything, but that he would be daily asking new when it was come, I desired his highness to feel favours of me.

if it was warm, which he did, and I immediately After we were up, (for this conference was in washed my face all over with it before him. This bed ) he desired I would dress me in the best was, indeed, more than satisfaction, that is to suit of clothes I had. It was a day or two after say, than believing, for it was an undeniable de. the three suits were made and brought home. Il monstration, and he kissed my cheeks and breasts told him, if he pleased, I would rather dress me a thousand times, with expressions of the greatest in that suit which I knew he liked best. He asked |surprise imaginable. me how I could know that before he had seen Nor was I a very indifferent figure as to shape; them. I told him I would presume for once to l though I had two children by my gentleman, and guess at his fancy by ny own ; so I went away six by my true husband, I say, I was no despicable and dressed me in the second suit, brocaded with shape; and my prince (I must be allowed the silver, and returned in full dress, with a suit of| vanity to call him so) was taking his view of me lace upon my head, which would have been worth as I walked from one end of the room to the in England £200 sterling; and I was every way other. At last he leads me to the darkest part set out as well as Amy could dress me, who was of the room, and standing behind me, bid me a very genteel dresser too. In this figure I came hold up my head, when putting both his hands to him, out of my dressing room, which opened round my neck, as if he was spanning my neck, with folding doors into his bedchamber.

to see how small it was, for it was long and small, He sat as one astonished a good while, looking || he held my neck so long and so hard in his hand, at me, without speaking a word, till I came quite that I complaind he hurt me a little. What he up to him, kneeled on one knee to him, and did it for, I knew not, nor had I the least suspi. almost, whether he would or no, kissed his hand. cion but that he was spanning my neck; but when He took me up, and stood up himself, but was | I said he hurt me, lie seemed to let me go, and surprised when, taking me in his armis, he per in a half a minute more led me to a , pier glass, ceived tears to run down my cheeks. “My dear,” and behold I saw my neck clasped with a fine says he, aloud, “what mean these tears?"-"My necklace of diamonds; whereas I felt no more lord," said I, after some little check, for I could what he was doing than if he had really done not speak presently, “I beseech you to believe nothing at all, nor did I suspect it in the least. me, they are not tears of sorrow, but tears of || If I had an ounce of blood in me that did not joy. It is impossible for me to see myself snatched || Ay up in my face, neck, and breasts, it must be from the misery I was fallen into, and at once to || from some interruption in the vessels. I was all be in the arms of a prince of such goodness, such || on fire with the sight, and began to wonder what immense bounty, and be treated in such a man it was that was coming to me. ner; it is not possible, my lord,” said I, “to con However, to let him see that I was not unquatain the satisfaction of it; and it will break out | lified to receive benefits, I turned about : “ My in an excess in some measure proportioned to lord," says I, “ your highness is resolved to conyour immense bounty, and to the affection which quer, by your bounty the very gratitude of your your highness treats me with, who am so infi servants; you will leave no room for anything nitely below you.”

but thanks, and make those thanks useless too, It would look a little too much like a romance | by their bearing no proportion to the occasion." here to repeat all the kind things he said to me || “I love, child," says he, “ to see everything on that occasion, but I cannot omnit one passage; Il suitable. A fine gown and petticoat, a fine laced head, a fine face and neck and no necklace, would | Oh! could we hear now the rcproaches this not have made the object perfect. But why that great man afterwards loaded himself with, when blush, my dear?" says the prince. “My lord," said he grew weary of this admired creature, and I, “ all your gifts call for blushes, but above all | became sick of his vice ! how profitable would blush to receive what I am so little able to merit, the report of them be to the reader of this and may become so ill also."

story; but had he himself also known the dirty Thus far I am a standing mark of the weak- || history of my actings upon the stage of life, that il ness of great men in their vice, that value not little time I had been in the world, how much li squandering away immense wealth upon the most more severe would those reproaches have been 11 worthless creatures; or, to sum it up in a word, | upon himself, but I shall come to this again. they raise the value of the object which they | I lived in this gay sort of retirement almost pretend to pitch upon by their fancy. I say, three years, in which time no amour of such a raise the value of it at their own expense; give || kind, sure, was ever carried up so high. The vast presents for a ruinous favour which is so far | prince knew no bounds to his munificence; he i from being equal to the price, that nothing will could give me nothing either for my wearing, or at last prove more absurd than the cost men are using, or eating, or drinking, more than he had i at to purchase their own destruction.

done from the beginning. I could not, in the height of all these fine 1 His presents were after that in gold, and very! doings, I say, I could not be without some just frequent and large, often a hundred pistoles, reflection, though conscience was, as I said, never less than fifty at a time; and I inust do " dumb as to any disturbance it gave me in my myself the justice, that I seemed rather back. wickedness. My vanity was fed up to such a ward to receive, than craving and encroaching; height, that I had no room to give way to such | not that I had not an avaricious temper, nor was, reflections. But I could not but sometimes | it that I did not foresee that this was my harvest look back with astonishment at the folly of men in which I was to gather up, and that it would of quality, who, immense in their bounty as in not last long; but it was that really his bounty i their wealth, give to a profusion and without always anticipated my expectations, and even my bounds to the most scandalous of our sex, for wishes; and he gave me money so fast, that he granting them the liberty of amusing themselves rather poured it in upon mc than left me room and ruining both.

Il to ask it: so that before I could spend fifty pisi I, that knew what this carcase of mine had ocen toles, I had always a hundred to make it up but a few years before ; how overwhelmed with After I had been near a rear and a ball in his grief, drowned in tears, frighted with the prospect arms as above, or thereabouts, I proved with of beggary, and surrounded with rags and father. child. I did not take any notice of it to hinu less children, that was pawning and selling the till I was satisfied that I was not deceived; when rags that covered me for a dinner, and sat on the one morning early, when we were in bed togeground despairing of help, and expecting to be ther, I said to him, “ My lord, I doubt your starved till my children were snatched from me li highness never gives yourself leave to think what to be kept by the parish ; I, that was after this the case should be, if I should have the honour | a whore for bread, and abandoning conscience to be with child by you." _“ Why, my dear," and virtue, lived with another woman's husband; says he, “we are able to keep it if such a thing I that was despised by all my relations and my should happen. I hope you are not concerned husband's too ; I, that was left so entirely deso. about that." _“ No, my lord,” said I, - I should late, friendless, and helpless, that I knew not how | think myself very happy if I could bring your to get the least help to keep me from starving; | highness a son; I should hope to see him a that I should be caressed by a prince, for the ho. | lieutenant-general of the king's armies by the nour of having the scandalous use of my prosti- interest of his father, and by his own merit." * Astuted body, common before to his inferiors, and sure yourself, child,” says he, “if it should be so, I perhaps would not have denied one of his footmen will not refuse owning him for my son, though but a little while before, if I could have got my it be as they call it, a natural son; and shall bread by it.

never slight or neglect him for the sake of his I say, I could not but reflect upon the brutality | mother." Then he began to importune me to and blindness of mankind; that because nature know if it were so, but I positively denied it so had given me a good skin and some agreeable long, till at last I was able to give him the satish features, should suffer that beauty to be such a faction of knowing it himself by the motion of bait to appetite, as to do such sordid unaccount the child within me. able things to obtain the possession of it.

He professed himself overjoyed at the disco. 1 It is for this reason that I have so largely set | very, but told me that now it was absolutely nedown the particulars of the caresses I was treated cessary for me to quit the confinement which, with by thre jeweller, and also by this prince. Not he said, I had suffered for his sake, and to take to make the story an incentive to the vice, which a house somewhere in the country, in order for I am now such a sorrowful penitent for being health as well as for privacy, against my lyingguilty of, (God forbid any should make so vile a in. This was quite out of iny way, but the use of so good a design,) but to draw the just | prince, who was a man of pleasuro, had, it picture of a man enslaved to the rage of his || seems, several retreats of this kind, which he vicious appetite; how he defaces the image of God | had made use of, I suppose, upon like occasions; in his soul; dethrones his reason, causes con- and so leaving it, as it were, to his gentleman, science to abdicate the possession, and exalts he provided a very convenient house, about four sense into the vacant throne; how he deposes the | miles south of Paris, at the village of man and exalts the brute.

il where I had very agreeable lodginys, good gar.

dens, and all things very easy to my content;ll Then I recommended my woman, Amy, to his but one thing did not please me at all, viz. that|lavour for a hundred pistoles, on condition she an old woman was provided, and put into the II gave up the keys as above to his gentleman, and house to furnish everything necessary to my his gentleman's receipt for them. When he saw lying-in, and to assist at my travail.

this, “ My dear child," said he, and took me in I did not like this old woman at all; she his arms, “ what! have you been making your I looked so like a spy upon me, or (as sometimes will and disposing of your effects? Pray who do 1. I was frightened to imagine) like one set pri. Il you make your universal heir?"_" So far as to || vately to dispatch me out of the world, as might | do justice to your highness, in case of mortality, | best suit with the circumstances of my lying-in; || I have, my lord,” said I, “and who should I dis. , and when his highness came the next time to see | pose the valuable things to, which I have had me, which was not many days, I expostulated from your hand as pledges of your favour and

a little on the subject of the old woman; and testimonies of your bounty, but to the giver of | by the management of my tongue, as well as them? If the child should live, your highness will,

by the strength of my reasoning, I convinced him || I do not question, act like yourself in that part, that it would not be at all conveniont; that it 1 and I shall have the utmost satisfaction that it would be the greater risk on his side; and at will be well used by your direction." first or at last it would certainly expose him and I could see he took this very well. “I hare me also. I assured him that my servant, being forsaken all the ladies in Paris," says he, “ for an English woman, never knew to that hour you, and I have lived every day since I knew you who bis highness was ; that I always called him to see that you know to merit all that a man of the Count de Clerac, and that she knew nothing honour can do for you. Be easy, child, I hope else of him, nor ever should ; that if he would you will not die, and all you have is your own, to give me leave to choose proper persons for my || do with it what you please." use, it should be so ordered, that not one of I was then within about two months of my them should know who he was, or perhaps ever time, and that soon wore off. When I found my see his face; and that for the reality of the child time was come, it fell out very happily that he that should be born, his highness who had alone was in the house, and I entreated he would conbeen at the first of it, should, if he pleased, be tinue a few hours in the house, which he agreed present in the room all the time, so that he to. They called his highness to come into the would need no witnesses on that account. room, if he pleased, as I had offered and had de.

This discourse fully satisfied him, so that he sired him; and I sent word I would make as few ordered his gentleman to dismiss the old woman cries as possible to prevent disturbing him. He the same day, and without any difficulty I sent || came into the room once, and called to me to be my maid Amy to Calais, and thence to Dover, of good courage, it would soon be over, and then where she got an English midwife and nurse, to he withdrew again; and in about half an hour come over on purpose to attend an English lady more Amy carried him the news that I was deof quality, as they stiled me, for four months livered, and had brought him a charming boy. certain.

He gave her ten pistoles for her news, stayed till This midwife Amy had agreed to pay a hun they had adjusted things about me, and then dred guineas to, and bear her charges to Paris came into the room again, cheered me and spoke and back again to Dover. The poor woman kindly to me, and looked on the child, then with.

that was to be my nurse had twenty pounds, and úrew, and came again the next day to visit me. | the same charges as the other.

Since this, and when I have looked back upon I was very casy when Amy returned, and the these things with eyes unpossessed with crime, more because she brought with the midwife a

| when the wicked part has appeared in its clearer good motherly sort of a woman, who was to be

light, and I have seen it in its own natural colours, her assistant, and would be very helpful on occa

when no more blinded with the glittering appear. sion; and bespoke a man-midwife at Paris too, | ances, which at that time deluded me, as in like If there should be any necessity for his help.

cases, if I may guess at others by myself, too Having thus made provision for everything, the much possessed the mind. I say, since this, I

unt, for so we all called him in public, came as have often wondered with what pleasure or satisolen to see me as I could expect, and continued faction the prince could look upon the poor inexceeding kind, as he had always been. One nocent infant, which, though his own, and that he iay, conversing together upon the subject of my || might that way have some attachment in his being with child, I told him how all things were li affections to it, yet must always afterwards be a

aer, but that I had a strange apprehension | remembrance to him of his most early crime, and, hat I should die with that child. He smiled, l which was worse, must bear upon itself, unmerited, So all ladies say, my dear," says he, “ when they

l an eternal mark of infamy, which should be spoken O child."-" Well, however, my lord," said of, upon all occasions, to its reproach, from the

is but just that care should be taken that folly of its father and wickedness of its mother. hat you have bestowed in your excess of bounty Great men are indeed delivered from the bur. u me should not be lost :” and upon this I l den of their natural children, or bastards, as to

paper out of my bosom, folded up, but their maintenance. This is the main affliction in t sealed, and I read it to him, wherein I had

other cases, where there is no substance sufficient at all the plate and jewels, and fine without breaking into the fortunes of the family. re which his highness had given me, should || In those cases, either a man's legitimate children restored to

to him by my woman, and the keys suffer, which is very unnatural, or the unfortunate immediately delivered to his gentlema le of disaster. cely delivered to his gentleman, in | mother of that illegitimate birth, a dreadful alter

li native, eithor of being turned off with her child,

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