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and be left to starve, &c., or of seeing the poor || these things could not be helped ; that they infant packed off with a piece of money to some served for a spur to the spirits of brave men, of those she-butchers, who take children off their inspired them with the principles of gallantry, hands, as it is called, that is to say, starve them, and prompted them to brave actions; that though and in a word, murder them.
it might be true that the mention of illegitimacy Great men, I say, are delivered from this bur. I might attend the name, yet that personal virtue den, because they are always furnished to sup- placed a man of honour above the reproach of ply the expense of their out of the way offspring, I his birth; that, as he had no sbare in the offence. by making little assignments upon the bank of he could have no concern at the blot ; whea, Lyons, or the Town-house of Paris, and settling having by his own merit placed himself out of those sums, to be received for the maintenance of the reach of scandal, his fame should drown the such expense as they see cause.
memory of his beginning Thus, in the case of this child of mine, while That as it was usual for men of quality to he and I conversed, there was no need to make make such little escapes, so the number of their any appointment as an appendage or maintenance natural children were so great, and they genefor the child or its nurse, for he supplied me more rally took such good care of their education, than sufficiently for all those things; but after that some of the greatest men in the world had wards, when time, and a particular circumstance, a bend in their coat of arms, and that it was of put an end to our conversing together, as such no consequence to them, especially when their things always meet with a period, and generally | fame began to rise upon the basis of their acbreak off abruptly, I say, after that, I found he ap quired merit; and upon this he began to reckon pointed the children a settled allowance, by an up to me some of the greatest families in France assignment of annual rent upon the bank of Lyons, and in England also. which was sufficient for bringing them handsome Į This carried off our discourse for a time; but ly, though privately, up in the world, and that I went further with him once, removing the disnot in a manner unworthy of their father's blood, course from the part attending our children to though I came to be sunk and forgotten in the the reproach which those children would be apt case; nor did the children ever know anything to throw upon us, tbeir originals; and, when of their mother to this day, other than as you speaking a little too feelingly on the subjeet, he may have an account hereafter.
began to receive the impression a little deeper But to look back to the particular observation than I wished he had done. At last he told me I was making, which I hope may be of use to I had almost acted the confessor to him ; that I those who read my story, I say it was something might, perhaps, preach a more dangerous docwonderful to me to see this person so exceeding trine to him than we should either of us like, or ly delighted at the birth of this child, and so than I was aware of; “ For, my dear," says he, pleased with it; for he would sit and look at it, “ if once we come to talk of repentance, we must and with an air of seriousness sometimes, a great talk of parting.” while together, and particularly, I observed, he If tears were in my eyes before, they now loved to look at it when it was asleep.
flowed too fast to be restrained, and I gave him It was indeed a lovely, charming child, and had but too much satisfaction by my looks that I had a certain vivacity in its countenance that is far yet no reflections upon my mind strong enough from being common to all children so young, and to go that length, and that I could no more think he would often say to me, that he believed there of parting than he could. was something extraordinary in the child, and 1 He said a great many kind things, which were he did not doubt but he would come to be a great, like himself; and, extenuating our crime, great man.
intimated to me that he could no more part with I could never hear him say so, but though se me than I could with him ; so we both, as I may cretly it pleased me, yet it so closely touched me say, even against our light, and against our conanother way that I could not refrain sighing, and viction, concluded to sin on ; indeed, his affection sometimes tears; and one time in particular it to the child was one great tie to him, for he was 80 affected me that I could not conceal it from extrem fond of it. him ; but when he saw tears run down my face U This child lived to be a considerable man. He there was no concealing the occasion from him ; 1 was first an officer of the Garde du Corps o he was too importunate to be denied in a thing France, and afterwards colonel of a regiment of of that moment, so I frankly answered : “ It dragoons in Italy; and on many extraordinary sensibly affects me, my lord," said I, “that what. occasions showed that he was not unworthy such ever the merit of this little creature may be, he a father, but many ways deserving a legitimate must always have a bend on his arms. The dis birth, and a better mother, of which hereafter Aster of his birth will be always, not only a blot | I think I may say now that I lived indeed like to his honour, but a bar to his fortunes in the a queen; or, if you will have me confess, that my world. Our affections will still be ever his afflic condition had still the reproach of a whore; ! tion, and his mother's crime be the son's re may say I was, sure, the queen of whores; for proach : the blot can never be wiped out by the no woman was ever more valued or more caressed most glorious actions ; nay, if it lives to raise a by a person of such quality only in the station et family," said I, “the infamy must descend even a mistress. I had, indeed, one deficiency which to its innocent posterity."
women in such circumstances seldom are char He took the thought, and sometimes told me geable; namely, I craved nothing of him.! afterwards that it made a deeper impression on never asked him for anything in my life, nor sufhim than he discovered to me at that time; but | fered myself to be made use of, as is too much for the present he put it off with telling me 'I the custom of mistresses, to ask favours
others. His bounty always prevented me in the house, where he sometimes came, whether upon first, and my strict concealing myself in the last, || other amours or not was no business of mine to which was no less to my convenience than to inquire. I knew nothing whither he intended his.
to carry me; but when he was in the coach with The only favour I ever asked of him was for me, he told me he had ordered his servant to go his gentleman, whom he had all along entrusted to court with me, and he would show me some with the secret of our affair, and who once so of the beau monde. I told him I cared not where
much offended him by some omissions in his duty I went while I had the honour to have him with | that he found it very hard to make his peace. me ; so he carried me to the fine palace of MeuSL | He came and laid his case before my woman Amy, don, where the Dauphin then was, and where he
and begged her to speak to me to intercede for had some particular intimacy with one of the him, which I did, and on my account he was re Dauphin's domestics, who procured a retreat for ceived again and pardoned, for which the grate me in his lodgings while we stayed there, which ful dog requited me by getting to bed to his was three or four days. benefactress, Amy, at which I was very angry; While I was there the king happened to come but Amy generously acknowledged that it was from Versailles, and, making but a short stay, her fault as much as his ; that she loved the fel. visited Madame the Dauphiness, who was then low so much that she believed if he had not asked | living. The prince was here incognito, only beher she should have asked him; I say this paci. cause of his being with me, and, therefore, when fied me, and I only obtained of her that she should he heard that the king was in the gardens, he not let him know that I knew it.
kept close within the lodgings; but the gentleI might have interspersed this part of my man in whose lodgings we were, with his lady and story with a great many pleasant parts and dis- | several others, went out to see the king, and I courses which happened between my maid Amy had the honour to be asked to go with them. and me, but I omit them on account of my own After we had seen the king, who did not stay story, which has been so extraordinary. How long in the gardens, we walked up the broad ter. ever, I must mention something as to Amy and race, and, crossing the hall towards the great her gentleman,
stair-case, I had a sight which confounded me at I inquired of Amy upon what terms they came once, as I doubt not it would have done any wo. to be so intimate, but Amy seemed backward to man in the world. The horse guards, or, what explain herself. I did not care to press her upon they call there, the gens d'armes, had, upon some a question of that nature, knowing that she occasion, been either upon duty, or been re. might have answered my question with a ques. viewed, or something (I did not understand that tion, and have said, “Why, how did you and part) was the matter, that occasioned their being the prince come to be so intimate?” so I left off there, I know not what; but, walking the guard. further inquiring into it, till, after some time, she chamber, and with his jack-boots on, and the told it me all freely of her own accord, which, to
whole habit of the troop, as it is worn when our cut it short, amounted to no more than this, that, | horse guards are upon duty, as they call it, at St like mistress like maid, as they had many leisure || James's Park; I say, there, to my inexpressible hours together below, while they waited respec
confusion, I saw Mr ****, my first husband, the tively when his lord and I were together above; brewer. I say, they could hardly avoid the usual question I could not be deceived; I passed so near him one to another; namely, why might not they do that I almost brushed him with my clothes, and the same thing below that we did above?
looked him full in the face; but, having my fan that account, indeed, as I said above, I before my face, so that he could not know me. could not find in my heart to be angry with Amy.
However, I knew him perfectly well, and I heard was, indeed, afraid the girl would have been him speak, which was a second way of knowing Fith child too, but that did not happen, and so
him. Besides being, you may be sure, astonished here was no hurt done ; for Amy had been han
and surprised at such a sight, I turned about elled before, as well as her mistress, and by the after I had passed him some steps, and, pretendme party too, as you have heard.
ing to ask the lady that was with me some quesitter I was up again, and iny child provided
tions, I stood as if I had viewed the Great Hall, th a good nurse, and, withal, winter coming the outer Guard Chamber, and some other - it was proper to think of coming to Paris
things ; but I did it to take a full view of his ain, which I did; but as I had now a coach
dress, that I might further inform myself. 3 horses, and some servants to attend me, by
While I stood thus amusing the lady that was lord's allowance, I took the liberty to have
with me with questions, he walked, talking with m come to Paris sometimes, and so to take a
another man of the same cloth, back again, just r into the gardens of the Thuileries, and
by me; and to my particular satisfaction, or diser pleasant places of the city. It happened
satisfaction, take it which way you will, I heard day that my prince (if I may call him so) him speak English, the other being, it seems, an a mind to give me some diversion, and to Englishman. - the air with me; but, that he might do it
I then asked the lady some other questions : not be publicly known, he comes to me in a
| “ Pray, madam,” says I, “what are these troopers h of the Count de *** a great officer of the
here; are they the king's guards ?" _“ No," says t, attended by his liveries also ; so that, in a
she, “they are the gens d'armes ; a small detache , it was impossible to guess by the equipage
ment of them, I suppose, attended the king toI was, or whom I belonged to; also that I t be the mos
day, but they are not his Majesty's ordinary more effectually concealed, he or-Iguard." Another lady that was with her said, me to be taken up at 'a mantua.maker's ll“ No, madam, it seems that this is not the case ;
for I heard them saying, the gens d'armes were || which she should not have done ; and pointing to here to-day by special order, some of them being the cornet that troop carried, which was not to march towards the Rhine, and these attend then quite out of sight, she let him early know for orders; but they go back to-morrow to Or- whereabouts he rode, only she could not name leans, where they are expected."
the captain. However, he gave her such direc This satisfied me in part, but I found means tions afterwards that, in short, Amy, who was an after this to inquire whose particular troop it | indefatigable girl, found him out. In seems he was that the gentlemen that were here belonged | had changed his name, not supposing any inquiry to; and with that I heard they would all be at would be made after him here; but, I say, Amy Paris the week after.
found him out, and went boldly to his quarters, Two days after we returned for Paris, when I asked for him, and he came out to her imme! took occasion to speak to my lord, that I heard diately. the gens d'armes were to be in the city the next I believe I was not more confounded at my week, and I should be charmed with seeing them first seeing him at Meudon then he was at sering march if they came in a body. He was so obli- Amy. He started and turned pale as death; ging in such things that I need but name a thing Amy believed if he had seen her at first, in an of that kind and it was done; so he ordered his convenient place for so villainous a purpose, be gentleman (I should now call him him Amy's would have murdered her. gentleman) to get me a place in a certain house But he started, as I said before, and asked in where I might see them march.
English, with an admiration, “ What are you?" As he did not appear with me on this occasion, “ Sir," says she," dont you know me?"_" Yes, so I had the liberty of taking my woman, Amy,
says he, “ I knew you when you were alive, but with me, and stood where we were very well what you are now (whether ghost or substance) accommodated for the observation which I was I know not."_" Be not afraid, sir, of that,” say: to make. I told Amy what I had seen, and she
Amy, “I am the same Amy that I was in your was as forward to make the discovery as I was to
service, and do not speak to you now for any have her, and almost as much surprised at the thing | hurt, but that I saw you accidentally yesterday itself. In a word, the gens d'arm's entered the
ride among the soldiers, I thought you might be city, as was expected, and made a most glorious
glad to hear from your friends at London."show indeed, being new clothed and armed, and * Well, Amy," says he, “then (having a little if being to have their standards blessed by the
covered himself) how does everybody do? What' Archbishop of Paris on this occasion, they indeed il is your mistress here?" Thus they began : looked very gay; and as they marched very Amy. My mistress, sir, alas! Not the mistress leisurely, I had time to take as critical a view, you mean, poor gentlewoman, you left her in a and make as nice a search among them as I pleased. Here, in a particular rank, eminent for |
Gent, Why that is true, Amy, but it could not one monstrous sized man on the right, here, Il be helped; I was in a sad condition myself. say, I saw my gentleman again, and a very hand.
Amy. I believe so, indeed, sir, or else you lead some jolly follow he was as any in the troop,
not gone away as you did; for it was a litt though not so monstrous large as that great one | terrible condition you left them all in, that I I speak of who, it scenis, was, however, a gentle must say. man of a very good family in Gascoigne, and was Gent. What did they do after I was gone? called the giant of Gascoigne.
Amy. Do, sir! very miserably you may be It was a kind of good fortune to us, among the sure ; how could it be otherwise? other circumstances of it, that something caused
Gent. Well, that is true indeed; but you may the troop to halt in their march, a little before that particular rank came right against that win
tell me, Amy, what became of them, if you please ;
for though I went so away, it was not because dow which I stood in, so that then we had occasion to take our full view of him, at a small dig.
I did not love them all very well, but because I
could not bear to see the poverty that was coming tance, and so as not to doubt of his being the
upon them, and which it was not in my power to same person. Amy, who thought she might, on many ac. 1
help ; what could I do? counts, veriture with more safety to be particular
Amy. Nay, I believe so, indeed, and I hata ,
heard my mistress say, many times, she did not than I could, asked her gentleman how a particular man, who she saw there among the gens
doubt but your affliction was as great as her's,
almost, wherever you were. d'armes might be inquired after and found out ;
Gent. Why, did she believe I was alive, then? she having seen an Englishman riding there who was supposed to be dead in England for several
Amy. Yes, sir, she always said she believed tog
were alive, because she thought she would have years before she came out of London, and that his wife had married again. It was a question
heard something of you had you been dead. the gentleman did not well understand how to
Gent. Ay, ay, my perplexity was very great, answer; but another person that stood by told | indeed, or else I had never gone away. her if she would tell him the gentleman's name. Il Amy. It was very cruel though to the pour he would endeavour to find him out for her, and || lady, sir, my mistress; she almost broke ber asked her, jestingly, if he was her lover? Amy | heart for you at first, for fear of what might put that off with a laugh, but still continued her i befal you, and at least because she could not be inquiry, and in such a manner as the gentleman || irom you. easily perceived she was in earnest, for he left || Gent. Alas! Amy, what could I do? Things bantering, and asked her in which part of the Il were driven to the last extremity before I fell;' troop he rode. She foolishly told him his name, li I could have done nothing but help to stare
net hare bar, them all if I had stayed; and beside I could not || Amy said she could say nothing to that, but trong came bear to sce it,
|| this, that she was satisfied her mistress would fit * Amy. You know, sir, that I can say little to marry nobody unless she had certain intelligence
what passed before, but I was a melancholy wit. ( that he had been dead from somebody that saw
ness to the sad distresses of my poor mistress so || him buried; “but, alas," says Amy, “my mishot | long as I stayed with her, and which would grieve tress was reduced to such dismal circumstances MENU : your heart to hear them. *
that nobody would be so foolish to think of her, I BACK | Gent. Well, Amy, I have heard enough so far, | unless it had been somebody to go a begging this best what did she do afterwards ?
with her." Amy. I can't give you any further account, | Amy, then, secing him so perfectly deluded, Er sir; my mistress would not let me stay with her made a long and lamentable outcry how she had
| any longer; for she said she could neither pay | been deluded away to marry a poor footman;
m e or subsist me. I told her I would serve her "for he is no worse or better,” says she, “though 1 200 without any wages, but I could not live without he calls bimself a lord's gentleman, and here," says
victuals, you know ; so I was forced to leave her, || Amy," he has dragged me over into a strange poor lady, sore against my will, and I heard after country to make a beggar of me;" and then she wards, that the landlord seized her goods, so she falls a howling again, and snivelling, which by the was turned out of doors : for as I went by the way, was all hypocrisy, but acted it so to the life as door, about a month after, I saw the house shut | perfectly deceived him, and he gave credit to up; and about a fortnight after that there were every word of it. | workmen fitting it up, as I suppose for a new “Why, Amy," says he, “ you are very well
tenant; but none of the neighbours could tell dressed, you do not look as if you were in dan. me what was become of my poor mistress, only ger of being a beggar."-" Ay, hang 'em," says that they said she was so poor that it was next Amy, “ they love to have fine clothes here, if to begging; that some of the neighbouring gen- they have never a smock under them; but I love tlefolks relieved her, or that else she must have to have money in cash, rather than a chest full starved."
of fine clothes. Besides, sir," says she, “most Then she went on, and told him that after that of the clothes I have were given me in the last they never heard any more of (me) her mistress, place I had, when I went away from my mis. but that she had been seen once or twice in theiress." city, very shabby, and poor in clothes, and it 1 Upon the whole of the discourse, Amy got out was thought she worked with her needle for her of him what condition he was in, and how he bread,
| lived, upon her promise to him that if ever she All this the jade said with so much cunning, I came to England, and should see her old mis. and managed and humoured it so well, and wiped tress, she should not let her know that be was her eyes and cried so artificially, that he took it alive. “ Alas! sir,” says Amy, “ I may never | all as it was intended he should, and once or come to see England again as long as I live, and twice she saw tears in his eyes too. He told her it would be ten thousand to one whether I shall It was a moving, melancholy story, and it had see my old mistress, for how should I know which almost broke his heart at first, but that he was way to look for her, or what part of England she driven to the last extremity, and could do nothing may be in, not I," says she; “ I don't so much but stay and see them all starve, which he could as know how to inquire for her; and if I should," not bear the thoughts of, but should have pis. say's Amy, “ever be so happy as to see her, I Folled hiinself if any such thing had happened would not do her so much mischief as to tell mile he was there that he left (me) his wife, || her where you were, sir, unless she was in a il the money he had in the world but 251., which condition to help herself and you too." This Fas as little as he could take with hiin to seek || further deluded him, and made him entirely open is fortune in the world. He could not doubt in his conversing with her. As to his own cir. ut that his relations, seeing they were all rich, li cumstances, he told her, she saw him in the Du have taken the poor children off, and not || highest preferment he had arrived to, or was - them come to the parish ; and that his wife ever like to arrive at; for having no friends or as young and handsome, and he thought might || acquaintance in France, and which was worse, Try again, perhaps, to her advantage; and for no money, he never expected to rise ; that he I very reason he never wrote to her, or let her I could have been made a lieutenant to a troop of
he was alive, that she might in a reason- | light horse but the week before, by the favour of term of years marry, and perhaps mend her an officer in the gens d'armes, who was his nes; that he resolved never to claim her, I friend; but that he must have found 8,000 livres use he should rejoice to hear that she had to have paid for it, to the gentleman who pos. ed to her mind; and that he wished there sessed it, and had leave given him to sell.“ But been a law made to empower a woman to where could I get 8,000 livres," says he, “ that
her husband was not heard of in so long I never have been master of 500 livres ready 2; which time, he thought, should not be moncy at a time, since I came into France."
four years, which was long enough to send “ O dear! sir," says Amy, “ I am very sorry 'n to a wife or family from any part of the to hear you say so; I fancy if you once got up
Il to some preferment, you would think of my
old mistress again, and do something for her; TC she told my whole story to the time that the poor lady," says Amy, “she wants it, to be Dok off one of my children, and which she per ery much aftected him: and he shook his head,
sure," and then she falls a crying again; “ it some things very bitter when he heard of the
| is a sad thing, indeed," says she, “ that you 115 Own relations to me.
Il should be so hard put to it for money, when
you had got a friend to recommend you, and I were but mean, and that she could not raise suel should lose it for want of money."_" Ay, so it || a sum ; and this she did, to try him to the utmost; was, Amy, indeed,” says he ; " but what can a he descended to 300, then to 100, then to 50, and štranger do that has neither money nor friends?" || then to a pistole, which she lent him, but he never Here Amy puts in again on my account : “Well," | intending to pay it, played out of her sight as says she,« my poor mistress has had a loss.much as he could ; and thus being satisfied that though she knows nothing of it; O dear! how he was the same worthless thing he had ever been, happy it would have been ; to be sure, sir, you I threw off all thoughts of him ; whereas, had be would have helped her all you could."_" Aye,” | been a man of any sense, and of any principle d. says he, “ Amy, so I would with all my heart ; honour, I had it in my thoughts to retire to Eng. and even as I am, I would send her some relier, land again, send for him over, and have lived if I thought she wanted it; only letting her honestly with him. But as a fool is the worst know I was alive might do her some prejudice, of husbands to do a woman good, so a fool is the in case of her settling or marrying anybody." worst husband a woman can do good to. I would
" Alas," says Amy, “ Marry! who will marry willingly have done him good, but he was not her in the poor condition she is in ?" And so qualified to receive it or make the best use of it. their discourse ended for that time.
Had I sent him ten thousand crowns instead d All this was mere talk on both sides, and ten thousand livres, and sent it with express cou. words of course ; for on further inquiry, Amy dition that he should immediately have bought found that he had no such offer of a lieutenant's himself the commission he talked of with part of commission, or anything like it; and that he the money, and have sent some of it to relieve rambled in his discourse from one thing to the necessities of his poor miserable wife at Loc. another : but of that in its place.
don, and to prevent his children to be kept by the You may be sure that this discourse, as Amy parish, it was evident he would bave been stil at first related it, was moving to the last degree but a private trooper, and his wife and children upon me; and I was once going to send him the would still have starved at London, or been kept 8,000 livres to purchase the commission he had of mere charity, as, for aught he knew, they then spoken of; but as I knew his character better were. than anybody, I was willing to search a little Seeing, therefore, no remedy, I was obliged to further into it; and so I set Amy to inquire of withdraw my hand from him, that had been my some other of the troop, to see what character | first destroyer, and reserve the as istance that I he had, and whether there was anything in the intended to have given him for another more de story of a lieutenant's commission or no.
sirable opportunity. All that I had now to do I But Amy soon came to a better understanding | was to keep myself out of his sight, which is of him, for she presently learned that he had a not very difficult for me to do, considering in what most scoundrel character ; that there was no station he lived. thing of weight in anything he said ; but that he Amy and I had several consultations then upon was in short a mere sharper, one that would stick | the main question, namely, how to be sure never at nothing to get money, and that there was no to chop upon him again by chance, and to be depending on anything he said ; and that more es surprised into a discovery, which would have pecially about the lieutenant's commission, she || been a fatal discovery indeed. Amy proposed understood that there was nothing in it, but they || that we should always take care to know where told her how he had often made use of that sham the gens d'armes were quartered, and thereby to borrow money, and move gentlemen to pity Il effectually avoid them, and this was one way. him and lend him money, in hopes to get him pre. But this was not so as to be fully to my satisferment; that he had reported that he had a wife faction; no ordinary way of inquiring where the and five children in England, whom he main gens d'armes were quartered was sufficient for tained out of his pay, and by these shifts had run || me; but I found out a fellow who was completely into debt in several places, and upon several com- || qualified for the work of a spy (for France has plaints of such things, he had been threatened to plenty of such people). This man I emploved to be turned out of the gens d'armes, and that in that || be a constant and particular attendant upon bis he was not to be believed in anything he said, or person and motions; and he was especially en trusted on any account.
ployed and ordered to haunt him as a ghost; tbst Upon this information Amy began to cool in || he should scarce let him be ever out of his sight. hér further meddling with him, and told me it was He performed this to a nicety, and failed not to not safe for me to attempt doing him any good, ll give me a perfect journal of all his motions from unless I resolved to put him upon suspicions and day to day, and, whether for his pleasure or his inquiries which might be to my ruin, in the con business, was always at his heels. dition I was now.
This was somewhat expensive, and such a fellow I was soon confirmed in this part of his charac- | merited to be well paid, but he did his business so ter, for the next time that Amy came to talk with exquisitely punctual, that this poor man scarce him, he discovered himself more effectually ; for went out of the house without my knowing the while she had put him in hopes of procuring one way he went, the company he kept, when he went to advance the money for the lieutenant's com || abroad, and when he stayed at home. mission for him upon easy conditions, he by de By this extraordinary conduct I made mysli grees dropped the discourse, then pretended that // sase, and so went out in public or stayed at home it was too late, and that he could not get it, and as I found he was or was not in a possibiley d. then descended to ask poor Amy to lend him 500 being at Paris, at Versailles, or any place I had pistolés.
occasion to be at. This, though it was ver Amy pretended poverty; that her circumstances l chargeable, yet as I found it absolutely necessary.