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so I took no thought about the expense of it, I gave me his company all the evening, supped for I knew I could not purchase my safety tool with me about midnight, and did me the honour, dear.
1) as I then called it, to lodge me in his arms all By this management I found an opportunity || the night, telling me, in jest, that the best thanks to see what a most insignificant, unthinking life for a son born was giving the pledge for another. the poor indolent wretch, who, by his unactivell But as I hinted, so it was; the next morning temper, had at first been my ruin, now lived ; | he laid me down on my toilet a purse with three how he only rose in the morning to go to bed at hundred pistoles. I saw him lay it down, and night; that saving the necessary motion of the understood what he meant, but I took no notice troops, which he was obliged, to attend, he was of it till I came to it, as it were, casually; then a mere motionless animal, of no consequence in I gave a great cry out, and fell a scolding in my the world ; that he seemed to be one who, though way, for he gave me all possible freedom of he was indeed alive, had no manner of business | speech on such occasions. I told him he was in life, but to stay to be called out of it; he unkind, that he would never give me an oppor. neither kept any company, minded any sport, | tunity to ask him for anything ; that he forced played at any game, or indeed did anything of me to blush by being too much obliged, and the moment; but in short sauntered about like one like; all which I knew was very agreeable to
that was not two livres value, whether dead or him, for as he was bountiful beyond measure, so *
alive; that when he was gone, would leave no he was infinitely obliged by my being so backremembrance behind him that ever he was here; // ward to ask any favours; and I was even with that if ever he did anything in the world to be | him, for I never asked him for a farthing in my talked of, it was only to get five beggars and | life. starve his wife. The journal of his life, which I | Upon this rallying him, he told me I had either had constantly sent me every week, was the least || perfectly studied the art of humour, or else, what significant of anything of its kind that was ever I was the greatest difficulty to others was natural scen; as it had really nothing of earnest in it, so it to me, adding, that nothing could be more obligwould make no jest to relate it. It was not im. || ing to a man of honour than not to be soliciting portant enough so much as to make the reader and craving. merry withal, and for that reason I omit it,
I told him nothing could be craving upon him; Yet this nothing doing wretch was I obliged to that he left no room for it ; that I hoped he did watch and guard against, as the only thing that not give merely to avoid the trouble of being was capable of doing me hurt in the world. I was importuned ; and that he might depend upon it, to shun him as we would shun a spectre, even || I should be reduced very low indeed before I the devil, if he was actually in our way; and it offered to disturb him that way. cost me after the rate of 150 livres a month, and | He said a man of honour ought always to know very cheap too, to have this creature constantly what he ought to do; and as he did nothing but kept in view; that is to say, my spy undertook | what he knew was reasonable, he gave me leave never to let him be out of his sight an hour, but to be free with him, if I wanted anything; that so as that he could give an account of him, which he had too much value for me to deny me anywas much the easier to be done, considering his thing, if I asked, but that it was infinitely agree. way of living; for he was sure that, for whole | able to him to hear me say that what he did was weeks together, he would be ten hours of the day || to my satisfaction. half asleep on a bench at a tavern door where We strained compliments thus a great while, he quartered, or drunk within the house. Though and as he had me in his arms most part of the this wicked life he led sometimes moved me to time, so upon all my expressions of his bounty pity him, and to wonder how so well-bred and to me he put a stop to me with his kisses, and gentlemanly a man as he once was could degene. I would admit me to go on no further. rate into so useless a thing as he now appeared, || I should in this place mention, that this prince a. at the same time it gave me most contempt. || was not a subje
I was not a subject of France, though at that time me thoughts of him, and made me often say i ||he resided at Paris, and was much at court, where was a warning for all the ladies of Europe against || I suppose he had or expected some considerable marrying of fools: a man of sense falls in the employment. But I mention it on this account; vorio
"e and gets up again, and a woman has some ll that a few days after this, he came to me and
nce for herself ; but with a fool, once fallen told me he was come to bring me not the most u ever undone; once in the ditch and die in || welcome news
I welcome news that ever I had heard from him in e ditch; once poor, and sure to starve.
his life. I looked at him a little surprised, but it is time to have done with him ; once I he returned, “Do not be uneasy ; it is as uno nothing to hope for but to see him again ; || pleasant to
I pleasant to me as to you, but I come to consult uy only felicity was, if possible, never to with you about it, and see if it cannot be made a um, and, above all, to keep him from seeing l! little easy to us both." which, as above, I took effectual care of. I seemed still more concerned and surprised; *as now returned to Paris (my little son of llat last he said it was that he believed he should
", as I called him, was left at my last be obliged to go into Italy, which, though other. - 27 seat) at the prince's request : thither he || wise it was very agreeable to him, yet his parting w me as soon as I arrived, and told me he || with me made it
with me made it a very dull thing but to think of. to give me jov of my return, and to make I sat mute, as one thunderstruck, for a good
wledgement for having given him a son. Il while; and it presently occurred to me, that I
Is, Indeed, he had been going to give me was going to lose him, which, indeed, I could but sent.
it, and so he did the next day, but in ill bear the thoughts of; and as he told me I
said then he only jested with me. He llturned pale. “What is the matter ?" said hê,
hastily, “I have surprised you indeed;" and || But after several debates between ourselves he ! stepping to the sideboard, fills a dram of cordial || came to this resolution, namely, that he would water, which was of his own bringing, and comes | travel incognito, and so should avoid all public. to me. “Be not surprised," said he, “I'll go notice, either of himself or who went with him ; nowhere without you," adding several other and that then he should not only carry me with things so kind as nothing could exceed it.
hiin, but have a perfect leisure of enjoying my I might indeed turn pale, for I was very much agreeable company (as he was pleased to call it) surprised at first, believing that this was, as it all the way. often happens in such cases, only a project to This was so obliging that nothiog could be drop me, and break off an amour which he had more so; upon this foot, he immediately set to i now carried on so long; and a thousand thoughts || work to prepare things for his journey ; and, by, whirled about my head in the few moments while his directions, so did I too; but now I had a ter I was kept in suspense, for they were but a few. || rible difficulty upon me, and which way to get I say I was indeed surprised, and might, perhaps, over it I know not; and that was, in what man. + look pale; but I was not in any danger of faint ner to take care of what I had to leave behind ing, that I know of.
me. I was rich, as I have said, very rich, add However, it not a little pleased me to see him what to do with it I knew not, or who to leare in so concerned and anxious about me; but I stop. trust I knew not. I had nobody but Amy in the ped a little when he put the cordial to my mouth, world, and to travel without Amy was very un. and taking the glass in my hand, I said, “My comfortable ; or to leave all I had in the world lord, your words are infinitely more of a cordial || with her, and, if she miscarried, be ruined at to me than this citron ; for as nothing can be a oncc, was still a frightful thought; for Amy greater affliction than to lose you, so nothing can might die, and whose hands the things might fall be a greater satisfiction than the assurance that into I knew not. This gave me great uocasiI shall not bave that misfortune."
ness, and I knew not what to do; for I could not He made me sit down, and sat down by me, mention it to the prince, lest he should see that and after saying a thousand kind things to me, I was richer than he thought I was. be turns upon me with a smile; “Why, will you But the prince made all this easy to me; for, venture yourself to Italy with me?" says he. 1 || in concerting measures for our journey, he started stopped awhile, and then answered that I won the thing himself, and asked me merrily one dered he would ask me that question, for I would || evening who I would trust with all my wealth in go anywhere in the world, or all over the world, || my absence. wherever hc should desire me, and give me the " My wealth, my lord,” said I, “ except what I felicity of his company.
owe to your goodness, is but small; but yet, that Then he entered into a long account of the little, I confess, causes some thoughtfulness; be. ! occasion of his journey, and how the king bad || cause I have no acquaintance in Paris that I dare engaged him to go, and some other circumstances | trust with it, nor anybody but my woman to which are not proper to enter into here; it being || leave in the house ; and how to do without her by no means proper to say anything that might || upon the road I do not well know." Icad the reader into the least guess at the person. « As to the road, be not concerned,” says the
But to cut short this part of the story, and the prince, “ I'll provide you servants to your mind; history of our journey and stay abroad, which and as to your woman, if you can trust her, leave would almost fill up a volume of itself, I say, we her here, and I'll put you in a way how to secure spent all that evening in cheerful consultations things as well as if you were at home," I bowed about the manner of our travelling, the equipage and told him I could not be put into better hands and figure he should go in, and in what manner than his own, and that, therefore, I would govern I should go. Several ways were proposed, but all my measures by his directions; so we talked i none seemed feasible, til at last I told him Ill no more of it that night. thought it would be so troublesome, so expensive, The next day he sent me in a great iron chest, and so public, that it would be many ways incon so large that it was as much as six lusty sellors venient to him; and though it was a kind of conld get up the steps into the house; and in death to me to lose him, yet rather than very this I put, indeed, all my wealth; and for my much perplex his affairs, I would submit to any. safety he ordered a good honest old inan and his thing.
wife to be in the house with her, to keep her At the next visit I filled his head with the | company, and a maid-servant and boy; so that same difficulties, and then at last came over him there was a good family, and Amy was madam, with a proposal that I would stay in Paris, or the mistress of the house. where else he should direct ; and when I heard Things being thus secured, we set out incog. of his safe arrival would come away by myself nito, as he called it; but we had two coaches and and place myself as near him as I could.
six horses, two chaises, and about eight man ser This gave him no satisfaction at all; nor || vants on horseback, all very well armed. would he hear any more of it ; but if I durst ven Never was woman better used in this world turc myself, as he called it, such a journey, he that went upon no other account than I did. 1 would not lose the satisfaction of my company; had three women-servants to wait on me, og? and, as for the expense, that was not to be whereof was an old Madam ***, who thoroughly named, neither, indeed, was there room to name understood her business, and managed everything it, for I found that he travelled at the king's cx. as if she had been major domo; so I had no pense, as well for himself as for all bis equipage, trouble. They had one coach to themselves, acd being on some secret service of the last import- || the prince and I in the other; only that some ti ance.
times, where he knew it ncccssary, I went int3
their coach, and one particular gentleman of the an extraordinary occasion, some years after, as retinue rode with him.
you shall hear in its place. I need not say I I shall say no more of the journey than that learnt Italian too, for I got pretty well mistress when we came to those frightful mountains, the of that before I had been there a year; and as I Alps, there was no travelling in our coaches, so had leisure enough, and loved the language, I he ordered a horse-litter, but carried by mules, read all the Italian books I could come at. to be provided for me, and himself went on I began to be so in love with Italy, especially horseback to Lyons. The coaches went some with Naples and Venice, that I could have been other way back. Then we had coaches hired at very well satisfied to have sent for Amy and have Turin, which met us at Suza; so that we were taken up my residence there for life. accommodated again, and went by easy journeys As to Rome, I did not like it all. The swarms afterwards to Rome, where his business, whatever of ecclesiastics of all kinds on one side, and the it was, called him to stay some time, and from scoundrel rabbles of the common people on the thence to Venice.
other, inake Rome the most unpleasant place in the He was as good as his word, indeed; for I had world to live in ; the innumerable number of the pleasure of his company, and, in a word, en valets, lacquies, and other servants is such, that grossed his conversation almost all the way. He they used to say that there are very few of the took delight in showing me everything that was common people in Rome but what have been to be seen, and particularly in telling me some. footmen, or porters, or grooms to cardinals or thing of the history of everything he showed me. | foreign ambassadors. In a word, they have an air
What valuable pains were here thrown away of sharping and cozening, quarrelling, and scold. upon one whom he was sure, at last, to abandon ing upon their general behaviour; and when I with regret! How below himself did a man of was there, the footmen made such a broil between quality and of a thousand accomplishments be two great families in Rome, about which of their have in all this ! 'Tis one of my reasons for en coaches (the ladies being in their coaches on tering into this part, which would otherwise not be either side) should give way to the other, that worth relating. Had I been a daughter or a wife, there was about thirty people wounded on both of whom it might be said that he had a just con sides, five or six killed outright, and both the cern in their instruction or improvement, it had | ladies frightened almost to death. . been an admirable step; but all this to a whore But I have no mind to write the history of my
-to one whom he carried with him upon no ac- || travels on this side of the world, at least not nowcount that could be rationally agreeable, and it would be too full of variety. none but to gratify the meanest of humon frailties I must not, however, omit that the prince con
-this was the wonder of it. But such is the tinued in all this journey the most kind, obliging power of a vicious inclination. Whoring was, in person to me in the world, and so constant, that a word, his darling crime, the worst excursion he
I though we were in a country where it is well made, for he was otherwise one of the most ex known all manner of liberties are taken, I am yet cellent persons in the world. No passions, no well assured he neither took the liberty he knew furious execrations, no ostentatious pride; the | he might have, nor so much as desired it. most humble, courteous, affable person in the
I have often thought of this noble person on world. Not an oath, not an indecent word, or that account ; had he been but half so true, so the least blemish in bebaviour, was to be seen in faithful, and constant to the best lady in the world, all his conversation, except as before excepted;
| I mean his princess, how glorions a virtue had it and it has given me occasion for many dark re. been in him! and how free had he been from lections since to look back and think that I those just reflections which touched him in her hould be the snare of such a person's life; that
behalf when it was too late! should influence him to so much wickedness,
We had some very agreeable conversations and that I should be the instrument in the hand upon this subject, and once he told me, with a the devil to do him so much prejudice.
kind of more than ordinary concern upon his We were near two years upon this grand tour,
thoughts, that he was greatly beholden to me for - it may be called, during most of which I re taking this hazardous and difficult journey, for led at Rome or at Venice, having only been
| that I had kept him honest. I looked up in his ice at Florence and once at Naples. I made | face, and coloured as red as fire : “ Well, well," nie very diverting and useful observations in says he, “ do not let that surprise you; I do say
these places, and particularly of the conduct you have kept me honest."-" My lord,” said I, che ladies ; for I had opportunity to converse " it is not for me to explain your words, but I wish y much among them, by the help of the old | I could turn them my own way; I hope," said I, ch that travelled with us; she had been at “ and believe we are both as honest as we can bles and at Venice, and had lived in the former be in our circumstances.”—“ Ay, ay,” said he, eral years, where, as I found, she had lived " and honester than I doubt I should have been
a loose life, as indeed the women of Naples | if you had not been with me. I cannot say but erally do ; and, in short, I found she was if you had not been here I should have wandered y acquainted with all the intriguing arts of lamong the gay world here, in Naples, and in E part of the world.
Venice too, for it is not such a crime here as it is Here my lord bought me a little female Turkish ll in other places; but I protest," says he, “I have
e, who, being taken at sea by a Maltese man not touched a woman in Italy but yourself, and car, was brought in there, and of her I learnt | more than that, I have not so much as had any
Turkish language, their way of dressing and desire to it, so that, I say, you have kept me cing, and some Turkish, or rather Moorish, || honest." gs, of which I made use to my advantage, on !! I was silent, and was glad that he interrupted
me, or kept me from speaking, with kissing me, ll I say I did not forget, therefore, to make as good for I really knew not what to say. I was once || provision for myself as if I had had notning 10 | going to say, that if his lady, the princess, had || have subsisted upon but what I now gained; } been with him, she would, doubtless, have had || whereas I had not less than ten thousand pounds, the same influence upon his virtue, with infinite- || as I said above, which I had amassed, or ratber ly more advantage to him; but I considered this || secured, out of the ruins of my faithful friend the might give him offence, and besides, such things I jeweller, and which he, little thinking of what was i might have been dangerous to the circumstance so near him when he went out, told me, thougti I stood in, so it passed off. But I must confess in a kind of jest, was all my own, if he was knocked I saw that he was quite another man as to wo. || on the head, and which, upon that title, I took men, than I understood he had always been be- || care to preserve. fore ; and it was a particular satisfaction to me, Il My greatest difficulty now was how to secure that I was thereby convinced that what he said || my wealth. and to keep what I had got ; for 1 was true, and that he was, as I may say, all my || had greatly added to this wealth by the generous own.
bounty of the prince, and the more by the private I was with child again in this journey, and lay in at || retired manner of living, which he rather desired Venice but was not so happy as before. I brought || for privacy than parsimony; for he supplied me him another son, and a very fine boy it was, but || for a more magnificent way of life than I desired, it lived not above two months ; nor, after the | if it had been proper. first touches of affection (which are usual, I be I shall cut short the history of this prosperous lieve, to all mothers) were over, was I sorry the wickedness with telling you I brought him child did not live, the necessary difficulties attend. || third son, within little more than eleven months ing it in our travelling being considered.
after our return from Italy; that I now lived a After these several perambulations, my lord | little more openly, and went by a particular Dame told me his business began to close, and we would which he gave me abroad, but which I must think of returning to France, which I was very omit, namely, the Countess de i and had glad of, but principally on account of my treasure || coaches and servants, suitable to the quality he I had there, which, as you have heard, was very || had given me the appearance of; and which is considerable. It is true, I had letters very fre- || more than usually happens in such cases, this quently from my maid Amy, with accounts that held eight years from the beginning, during everything was very safe, and that was very much which time, as I had been very faithful to him, o, to my satisfaction. However, as the prince's || I must say as above, that whereas he usually had negotiations were at an end, and he was obliged to two or three women, whom he kept privately, be return, I was very glad to go, so we returned had not in all that time meddled with any of from Venice to Turin, and in the way I saw the them, but that I had so perfectly cngrossed bim famous city of Milan. From Turin we went over that he dropped them all; not, perhaps, that he the mountains again, as before, and our coaches saved much by it, for I was a very chargeable met us at Pont a Voisin, between Chamberry and | mistress to him, but it was all owing to his par. Lyons; and so, by easy journies, we arrived safe || ticular affection to me, not to my extravagance, at Paris, having been absent about two years, || for, as I said, he never gave me leave to ask for wanting about eleven days as before.
anything, but forcing his favours and presents I found the little family we left just as we left farther than I expected, and so fast that I could them, and Amy cried for joy when she saw me, not have the assurance to make the least mention and I almost did the same.
of desiring more. Nor did I speak this of my The prince took his leave of me the night be. own guess, I mean about this constancy to me, fore, for, as he told me, he knew he should be and his quitting all other women; but the old met upon the road by several persons of quality, | harridan, as I may call her, whom he made the and perhaps by the princess herself, so we lay at | guide of our travelling, and who was a strange two different inns that night, lest some should | old creature, told me a thousand stories of his come quite to the place, as indeed it happened. | gallantry, as she called it, and how, as he had to
After this I saw him not for above twenty days, 1 less than three mistresses at one time, and as !! being taken up in his family, and also with busi- || found, all of her procuring, he had of a suddin ness; but he sent me his gentleman to tell me dropped them all, and that he was entirely last the reason of it, and bid not be uneasy, and that to both her and them; that they did believe be satisfied me effectually.
had fallen into some new hands, but she coulů In all this affluence of my good fortune, I did never hear who, or where, till be sent for her to not forget that I had been rich and poor once I go this journey; and then the old hag compu already, alternately, and that I ought to know || mented me upon his choice; that she did not that the circumstances I was now in were not to wonder I had so engrossed him; so much beauty, be expected to last always; that I had one child, | &c., and there she stopped. and expected another; and if I had bred often, it | Upon the whole, I found by her, what was you would something impair me in the great article may be sure to my particular satisfaction, viz., that supported my interest, I mean what he called that, as above, I had him all my own. But the beauty; that as that declined, I might expect || highest tide has its ebb; and in all things of this the fire would abate, and the warmth with which || kind, there is a reflux which sometimes niso is I was now so caressed wouid cool, and in time, more impetuously violent than the first aggres like the other mistresses of great men, I might sion. My prince was a man of vast fortuna, be dropped again ; and that, therefore, it was my || thongh no sovereign, and therefore there was De business to take care I should fall as softly as 1ll probability that the expense of keeping a mistress could.
could be injurious to him, as to his estate. Ik
had also several employments, both out of France in the opinion of all her physicians, very danger
as well as in it; for, as above, I say he was not ously so. In her sickness she desired to speak as to Ang
a subject of France, though he lived in that court. 1 with her lord, and to take her leave of him. At He had a princess, a wife, with whom he had this grievous parting, she said so many passionate lived several years, and a woman (so the voice Il kind things to him, lamented that she had left of fame reported) the most valuable of her sex, him no children (she had three, but they were of birth equal to him, if not superior, and of for | dead), hinted to him that it was one of the chief tune proportionable ; but in beauty, wit, and a || things which gave her satisfaction in death, as to thousand good qualities, superior, not only to this world, that she should leave him room to most women, but even to all her sex; and as to have heirs to his family, by some princess that ber virtue, the character which was most justly should supply her place; with all humility, but her due, was that of, not only the best of prin with a christian earnestness, recommended it to cesses, but even the best of women,
him to do justice to such princess, whoever it They lived in the utmost harmony (as with should be, from whom, to be sure, he would exsuch a princess it was impossible to be otherwise) pect justice; that is to say, to keep to her singly, but yet the princess was not insensible that her according to the solemnest part of the marriage lord had his foibles, that he did make some ex- || covenant ; humbly asked his highness's pardon, cursions, and particularly that he had one fa- l) if she had any way offended him; and appealing vourite mistress, who sometimes engrossed him Il to heaven, before whose tribunal she was to apmore than she (the princess) could wish, or be | pear, that she had never violated her honour or casily satisfied with. However, she was so good, I her duty to him; and praying to Jesus and the so generous, so truly kind a wife, that she never | Blessed Virgin for his highness; and thus, with gave him any uneasiness on this account, except || the most moving and most passionate expressions 80 much as must arise from his sense of her bear of her affection to him, took her last leave of ing the affront of it with such patience, and such | him, and died the next day. a profound respect for him as was in itself enough | This discourse, from a princess so valuable in. to have reformed him, and did sometimes shock || herself and so dear to him, and the loss of her his generous mind, so as to keep him at home, I following so immediately after, made such deep as I may call it, a great while together; and it | impressions on him that he looked back with dewas not long before I not only perceived it bv | testation upon the former part of his life, grew his absence, but really got a knowledge of the melancholy and reserved, changed his society reason of it, and once or twice he even acknow-|| and much of the general conduct of his life, reledged it to me.
solved on a life regulated most strictly by the It was a point that lay not in me to manage rules of virtue and piety, and, in a word, was I made a kind of motion, once or twice, to him, quite another man. to leave me, and keep himself to her, as he ought The first part of his reformation was a storm by the laws and rites of matrimony to do, and upon me; for, about ten days after the princess's argued the generosity of the princess too, to per-| funeral, he sent a message to me by his gentlesuade him; but I was a hypocrite, for had I man, intimating, though in very civil terms, and prevailed with him really to be honest, I had lost with a short preamble or introduction, that he him, which I could not bear the thoughts of; desired I would not take it ill that he was obliged and he might easily see I was not in earnest. to let me know that he could see me no more. One time in particular, when I took upon me to | His gentleman told me a long story of the new talk at this rate, I found when I argued so much regulation of life his lord had taken up, and that for the virtue and honour, the birth, and above ll he had been so afflicted for the loss of his prinall, the generous usage he found in the person cess, that he thought it would either shorten his of the princess with respect to his private amours, | life, or he would retire into some religious house, and how it should prevail upon him, &c., I found to end his days in solitude. it began to affect him, and he returned, “And do I need not direct anybody to suppose how I you indeed," says he, “persuade me to leave received this news. I was, indeed, exceedingly Fou? Would you have me think you sincere ?" surprised at it, and had much ado to support myI looked up in his face, smiling. “Not for any self when the first part of it was delivered, though ther favourite, my lord,” said I; “that would the gentleman delivered his errand with great reak my heart; but for madam the princess !” respect, and with all the regard to me that he ud I, and then I could say no more, tears fol- || was able, and with a great deal of ceremony ; wed, and I sat silent awhile, “Well," said he also telling me how much he was concerned to fever I do leave you, it shall be on the virtu. || bring me such a message. is account. it shall be for the princess; I assure But when I heard the particulars of the story 1 it shall be for no other woman.”_" That's || at large, and especially that of the lady's dis
ugh, my lord," said I, “there lought to submit; | course to the prince, a little before her death, I 3 while I am assured it shall be for no other was fully satisfied; I knew very well he had done tress, I promise your highness I will not re nothing but what any man must do that had a ei or that, if I do, it shall be a silent grief ; || true sense upon him of the justice of the prinall not interrupt your felicity."
cess's discourse to him, and of the necessity there 11 this while I said I knew not what, and said was of his altering his course of life, if he intended t I was no more able to do than he was able to be either a Christian or an honest man. I say, zve me, which, at that time, he owned he when I heard this, I was perfectly easy; I conI not do, no, not for the princess herself. | fess it was a circumstance that might be rea
t another turn of affairs determined this || sonably expected should have wrought something er, for the princess was taken very ill, and l upon me; I that had so much to reflect upon