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The ADVENTURES and Travels, in day, but in a different place each time,
various Parts of the Globe, of an interview with Charlotte. It apHENRY Vocel.” Translated froin peared that I was not wholly indifferthe German.
ent to Charlotte ; and in case I was [Continued from p. 115.]
right in that opinion, I intended 10 marry
her as soon as I should procure T
NOW returned back to my inn a situation which might produce me
with a contented mind, and sat a sufficient income. The milliner hoping, one hour after another, for promised to do all that was in her some agreeable tidings : but in vain!
power; she kept her word, and proDiscoutented did I retire to bed; and cured me many secret interviews. melancholy I lay there through the
By degrees our hearts were led from whole night without any sleep. At the simple feeling of friendship and Jast the morning dawned, and I arose: esteem to the most tender attection mid-day drew near, aud I received uo for each other, and Charlotte yielded message:
herself to this affection with the less At length, I received, about half hesitation, as I had never violated an hour aterwards, a letter from the either my duty or respect towards milliner, desiring me to go to her, her; and her parents also were 1aunder pretence of fetching the things vourably inclined towards my frequent which I had ordered. I soon repaired visits. thither, and what was my joy when Thus passed the last part of my I met there the olject of my love! academical life happily and sweetly
“Ah! how I rejoice," said I, “to away. I was beloved, and I loved find you here, dear girl: ever since I tenderly in return: I travelled backbad ihe happiness of being acquainted wards and forwards indeed more than with you, I have thought of nothing heretofore: but, on the otber hand, I else but you! How blissful should I endeavoured to employ erery quarter esteem myself, should I not be indif- of an hour that I was away in the furent to you! You alone are the most assiduous studs. At length, Cause why I have returned so soon to however, the time drew near wiren I Weimar: the articles of millinery should have to leave Jena; I disclosed were bespoken only that I might have this to my Charlotte, and she answer. an opportunity of seeing and speaking ed me by' a flood of lears. I took her to you." I inmediately counter- by the hand, and asked ber if she ordered the things, and gave the mil. wonld marry me, if I endeavoured to liner some louis d'ors as a compensa- procure myself a situation? tion. By this means I rendered her “ Mosť willingly," she replied; devoted to my interest. She befriend- but my answer to this question does ed Charlotte iruly, answered me sere- not depend merely upon myself, but ral questions, and at length offered upon my parents, and they have often that we might pass the atiernoon at said to me that they would never give her honse.
their consent to my marriage till 1 On my part this proposal was rea- should be demanded by a man of dily accepied: but Charjul!e could re- property, and possessing, likewise, a main only till church was over,because competent situation." she had to go out with her parents. As to ubat concerns the first," Happy should I have been this uime I an,tered, "I certainly cannot call if the preacher had extended his ser- myself rich, in comparison with your mou to an hour in length; the unie wealth; y'et, I possess sufficient to tlew merrily with us, in kissing, marry you with it any dowry; and laughing, and jesting, and, cre we as to whul concerns the last, I will were aware of it, the time of parting enderrour, with as little delay as pils. arrived. I begged for permission to sille, !o obtain some post; I will return scon iu Weimar, and which also, il you are willing, disclose niy permission I 300 obtained.
intentions to your parents, and ask When Charlotte was gone, I dis- you at their hands." closed myself to the milliner, and pro- She willingly consented; and I mised her some liberal present, if she availed myself, therefore, of all opcould procure, every Saturday or Sude portunity, when I happened to be
alone with her parents, to disclose to of these drop off during the term them my wishe', and I received nei- allotted, or soon after: many others ther an assent nor a denial. “ You become learned brewers, soldiers,and my daughter are yet young," hussars, beggars, &c. &c.; but there said the father to me; “ do not be still remains, in all parts, a greater 100 hasty: you may, perhaps, find number remaining than the state recome one you may like better, and quires, and the colleges cannot emobtain, through them, a good situa- ploy the best among them, so early tion. I am glad that you have a par- as they might wish, because there are tiality, for my daughter; but, with others whom they must also help regard to your request, I can say no- unless they would leave them to thing decidedly to that before you starve." hare bread: if my daughter then I knew all this to be very true, and thinks as she does now, I will put no had nothing, therefore, to object to obstacles in your way.
it. I commended myself, conseI know the custom of your quently, to his future kindness, and country, if you do not, sooner or later, to compliance with my request, as attain to some employment: but, I
soon as I should succeed in establish- ' imagine it is much the san:e there as ing myself. I loitered a few hours here. Were I now to give my coil; longer in the place, found an opporsent, I should shackle both you and tunity of speaking to Chariotte alone, my daughter : and might not lengih implored her to love me still, to conof time cool the love of both? Dis- tinue our interviews, and then remiss these thoughts therefore for the turned half contented, half disconpresent: try, first of all, if you are tented, back to Jena. successful in procuring some appoint
I bad not been many day's arrived, ment. The muniber of students becomes, every day, greater and greater, event, and which, at the same time,
when I met with a most melancholy while the number of places remains
had no inconsiderable influence upon " A short while ago one of the the after part of my life. I went one lowest offices of the priesthood, which evening to the house of a townsman, hardly produced a hundred and fifty who was my particular friend, to pass
a few hours. We had been about dollars a year, became vacant in a certain town. Candidates hastened balf an hour together, when a student from all parts to solicit the place. I borst into the room with a sword in happened to be in this very town at his band, pale in his looks, and bewilthe time, and remained there some nishment at this dreadful and unex.
dered in his manner. Full of asto. days. An alderman, who had a voie in the election, said to me, 'The sons
pected sight, we all sprung from our of the Muses must be in a very la. seat;, soine, to run away, and others mentable condition just Dow, for to detend themselves. But the stiisome very closer nicń have offered den ! || at our feet, and said to us, themselves this time for the vacant
with it trembling voice, “ Pity an
unfortunale wreich! I come from situation; whereis, formerly, no one tried for it but such as wer-convinced Lichtenhayn, ind was preceding to that they cond cxprct 10 better.'
my borne, when i smdient, who was Aid he was riglie. There are, lying in wait, rushed upon nie, as ] at lea-1, ruenty-five (now 37; univer- was passing throuigli the flesh-market, sities in Gémy, and we may con
wiilihe greatest brutality. clude bat, olie uit another, where " I rebliked him for his assaui!, are, yearly, 300 students at each, and assured him that I was on the perthese will give a total of 7.6.60 5- son whom be meani, that I even deutz, Let us suppose, also, that did not know him, and ail bekies these students end their academical that I could say in my ow? justitia criurse in three years, as is u uly the cation : but, instead of pacifying hin, case, and are succeeded by 7,500 I bal to endure fresh indignities, and more; it is in no wonder that for ny forbearance seemed only to eneach petty office there should be so rage him the more. At lergth, I many computitors. It is true, many could contain myself no longer; I
drew my sword, as he had already layed. We considered it as our duty his, and he rushed, in the first onset, to save him, as we could not be cer. on mine, and, in all probability, has tain whether the wounded man would wounded himself mortally. Heaven live or not: we collected somie money is my witness that I have become a for him, disguised his appearance, murderer innocently. In the great. went to the church-yard, climbed over est perplexity, unresolved whether to the gate there, and conducted him fly or to stay, I happened to pass by safely to the Saxon village of Zwetyour house, found the door open, and zen. Here he was compelled to te. now venture to seek here protection tire for a few hours to bed; and we and an asylum. Oh, have pity on did the same. The next morning we me, a wretched being! Conceal me continued our journey, arrived at only till the search after me is over, Naumburg, took up our abode over that I may save myself by Alight!" the Hall, and lived here for some
We all trembled at this story, and weeks incognito, till we, at last, beard an indescribable emotion took posses that the wounded man was out of all sion of us : but there was no i'ime to danger, and almost perfectly recothink of ourselves, for there was a vered. hapless being waiting inmediate help I had not the least anticipation that from us. We took him by the hand, this adventure would prove prejudipushed him into a small closet, and cial to myself. The news that a stulocked him up in the most careful dent had been wounded in Jena soon
travelled to Weimar, and so magniWe then hastened to the place fied, that the wounded man was rewhere the wounded man lay. They ported to have been left dead on the were just about to carry him to his spot: the names, also, of all the stuapartments : the blood streamed from dents who had assisted the delinquent the wounds which he had received on in his escape were promulgated. In his head. However, he had yet suf- the agitation and confusion of the ficient strength to say to those around moment I had never thought to write him, Behold, in me, an example of an account of the accident to my avenging God. Be warned by my Charlotte, or to tell her that I should fate which I have justly deserved. be absent, for a while, from Jena, and Should I die, and should he who has of course could not be at Weimar on wounded me be taken, I implore yon the next Saturday. tu be his defenders; he is innocent, As I had been expressly mentioned I attacked him, I gave no heed to his to her as a partisan in this duel, she remonstrances. He had scarcely ut- also, what had never happened be. tered these words when the surgeons fore, neither saw me on the Saturday, came to dress his wounds, and ihose nor received anv letter from me, and who were present retired.
even the letter which I did write to The agitation and anxiety of the her from Naumburg did not reach student, who was concealed in the her till a post later than it ought to closet, was, meanwhile, inexpressible. have done: so that she, at length, The thought of having murdered a painfully persuaded herself that I had man, and of plunging his family, in become unfaithful to her, and that I consequence of it, into the most should never dare to appear openly dreadful distress, made him frequently again in that countryShe was conresolve to deliver himself voluntarily vinced also that all hope was now into the bands of justice, as he saw destroyed of ever obtaining the conno other means by which he could sent of her parents to marry me. evince, to the worki, his sorrow and To this was added another unpleacontrition for the misfortune: and sant circumstance. Charlotte received, yet,ibe youth found, in the pure feel- at this very time, proposals of mar, ings of conscious innocence, a strong riage from a man who was her equal counterbalance to that resolution. in point of wealth, and superior to her
He remained in this state of anxi. in birth; and she was more sensibly ety till the middle of ile night, when affecied by this circumstance, as her all was quiet, and the strong commo- parents supported these proposals with tion which had been excited was al- the most urgent enurcaties and admo
nitions. They considered themselves I received only a brief note from as being absolved from all obligation her, in which she besought me not to towards the absent and defamed hate her, not to ascribe to her the youth who had secured only the guilt of this business, to forget her, daughter's heart, but not the free and and to invoke God in her behalf that explicit consent of both parents ac- he might (as it was so evident that cording to all due forms and ceremo. her parents would plunge her into
misery) soon remore her from this Charlotte's ingenuous and repeated earth. I pass over all the rest which declaration, thai such a dereliction this note contained, and which was trom her affection was wholly out of meant to soothe my anxiety and sorher power, that she abborred, as a
For ten years I kept it as a deed of infamy, to approach the altar, tender remembrance of her, till at and under the sanction of the most length I lost it in a shipwreck. solemn religious ceremony, to offer As a disconsolate husband turns perjured vows of conjugal love and away from the grave in which he has esicem, and that even were her heart beheld the partner of his life depositdisengaged, a union with a man ed, so turned I away from Weimar whose principles and whose actions towards Jena, wretched and forlorn. were in so many respects opposite to The beautiful Athenian hall, where I her's, would infallibly have the inost hitherto had lived so willingly, and fatal consequences to both, not only where, from attection towards my was ineffecíual to make her suitor re- beloved object, I had remained longer linguish his pursuit, but had, also, so than I had intended, was now a de. little impression upon her parents, sart waste to me, and the worst place that she was still inore barassed by in which I could be. I became weak them with cominands, threats, and and miserable ; I could rest neither reproaches.
night nor day; every wish to eat or There was, therefore, nothing left drink forsook me, and my desire of for Charlotte to do but to give her laborious study was totally gone. consent to these proposals, and to To this melancholy loss succeeded promise herself to a man, who was, another, not less afflictive, a few in every respect, disagreeable to her. weeks afterwards, which would have God! how was I astonished, when I driven any other man mad, but which, returned to Jena and, the next Satur- in all probability, was at that time of day, rode over to Weimar, yet totally eminent service to me, as I was thus, ignorant of all that had happened, and in some measure, drawn off from the now destined to find, in the house of reflection on my first mishap. my beloved, the greatest alteration. The caused me to be inform with the unwelcome intelligence that
I received, one morning, a letter parents ed that they could not speak to me : my guardian bad died suddenly, inCharlotte, she dare not sce me any volved in debt, and the greater part of more. The whole was to me a riddle, which I knew not how to explain.
my patrimony squandered away!
What must have been my feelings on In the agony of my heart, I went this occasion, they can guess who to some friends. Ahi there I heard have ever experienced similar circumall which had happened, and how all stances. Tuo such severe strokes of my blissful hopes were daswed to fortune, whici, from the happiest peces. I was inani viously assured condition, pilingaid me into the most that Charlotie had been compelled to lamentable sizie, were, indeed, too betroih herse!f to another : they had overpowering tor so young a man. I given her the vilest account of ine, wrote, in ray átfliction, w the magisthat I had Aed away to escape from trate of my native to.vn: I made ihe the bands of justice, and similar most lamentable representations of things! I was deprived of all thought my condition: but I received only at these tidings; and, unresolved what the slender consolation in answer, io do, I entreated, I prayed, to have that not more than about eight hun. only some conversation with Char. dred dollars of my patrimony were lotte: but I cou!d not obrain it
As niy mind recovered, by degrees, At the expense of others, thought I, its serenity, and as my chagrin abated, thou wilt learn to see the world : by I began to ponder upon the means of travelling thou wilt find diversion proceeding through the world there. which will re-establish thy health: after, for my money now was not thou wilt evier into a house alo sufficient to support me till I should where thou mayst refine and polish, get appointed to some office in the and perhaps eventually obtain a luchurch. Then it was that I felt, in crative and desirable situation. its full force, what Cicero says, Professor Polz informed his friend “ knowledge provides contort in mi. of my consent, and recommended nje sery;" for it was that which preserved as strongly as be could. I also pre. my mind froni sinking under its ca- pared, by degrees, for my departure, Jamities. The consciousness that I had and as soon as I had received some em;woyed my time at school and at letters of introduction from the prothe university to advantage, and that fessors to such literatí as I wished to the industry which I liad exeried become acquainied with in my way might become useful, in future, to to Lubech, I took leave of beloved my feilow creatures, gave me cou. Jena and its inhabitants. rage: and I began, once more, to feel
[To be continuerl] the vivifving infiuence of peaceful and contented inonients. I was particu.
. larly happy also that I had finished THIS interesting and promising my studies before the loss of my property, and that so many could and ture. He died lately, after a severe
youth bas paid ihe debt of namust live with much less money.
and afflicting decline, at Sealiam, near I at lengih resolved to unbosom Sunderlavd, where he went for the myself to some of the professors, to recovery of his health. The accounts make them acquainied with my loss, which we have heard of hin proclain and to entreat them to procure me, that he was an extraordinary young the first opportunity; a good tutor's situation. Walch, Schmidt, Wedel, (for an account of which see Univer
Indeed, his poemof the "Times" Silkkou, Blusche, Polz, and some sal Mag. for February 1809, p. 120) others, gave me the most solemn bespoke no ordinary capacity. He assurances that they would think of was the proteze of Mr Prait, who me whenever a sit opportunity of so kindly and liberally befriended him; doing should occur.
and who, in his poem of the Louer One Saturday Professor Polz sent World, thus speaks of bim as one of his famuins to me, requesting that I the bards who would have aiced the would call upon him abont eleven cause wbich Mr. Pratt advocated i o'clock, as he wanted io speak to me. that poem, foundedi on Lord Erskine's J ivent to him: he gave me a letter humane bill for preventing and pufrom his old friend io read, who had nishing wantou cruelty to animais :gone to Hamburgh in the capacity of a governor ov tutor, but who had ihere And thou, lord Black !, nearest to my feund an opportunity of obtaining the Whose muse I cherish as an angel guest; situation of tutor in the family of a My homage pay, and couri åt lidt ure's Swedish count, through whom he
shrine, afterwards got a very good situation. And bless the Providence that made thee He now requested his friend Polz to This the warm strain the gentle break procure him a good titor for his three would feel,
(verl; Besides a very considerable Thy heart would dictate, and thy nuse re. salary, there were many other fine But that dire pthisis* clouds thy beauteo13 promises contained in this letter; a draft for whoever should accept the A theme like this Thy genius would adorn situation was enclosed, and an assign- Chill not the promise of his rising av;
Oh! source divine of everlastilig day, meut to a merchant at Lubeck who O'erthv own heam shed not untimely night, would attend to my embarkation. So lo ihy glory nay he use the light!
Of this place I accepted without any besitation, because, in my condi- Of whiclı fatal disorder the youth is tion, I did not think I could do better. since dead.